I have the habit of looking back at my own blog to recall and remembered events and activities that had passed. Glad that I started this blog earlier and some of my life events was recorded when it happened.
Without the blog, I won't be able to remember the IVF journay and how I managed to clear the pregnancy without much fanfare. There are happy incidents and there are some that bring tears to my eyes whenever I read the blog.
Till today, I still can't really express how much I missed my grandma and I will read my blog to remember the day she left me. I never want to forget how grandma look like and how she loves me. I seriously missed her.
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
Learning to let God
I have not been to church for a long time and in recent months, I have the strong desired to be back. Probably because the twins made me realized that I need someone with greater power and I desperately need God to guide me and watch over me.
At times when I am totally helpless, God is my only way out. I have prayed to him in difficult time and not pray when things get better. This is terrible, I know. I need to get thing back in prospective and I want the twins to grow up in his Grace.
Dear lord, pls forgive my sin and my ignorance the day I walked away. My body, soul and mind are weak and I need your protection over me. Please give the patience and wisdom on handling the twins, I want them to live up to the name that we have given them. Always Sincere and Righteous. May you protection them against all odds and allow them to grow up healthy, happy and be useful. Thank you lord, Amen.
At times when I am totally helpless, God is my only way out. I have prayed to him in difficult time and not pray when things get better. This is terrible, I know. I need to get thing back in prospective and I want the twins to grow up in his Grace.
Dear lord, pls forgive my sin and my ignorance the day I walked away. My body, soul and mind are weak and I need your protection over me. Please give the patience and wisdom on handling the twins, I want them to live up to the name that we have given them. Always Sincere and Righteous. May you protection them against all odds and allow them to grow up healthy, happy and be useful. Thank you lord, Amen.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
News that bother
Parenthoods really changes us, like it or not. That is no option given and more often than not, the changes make us paranoid, worried and scared.
First, came on the news on HFMD, this used to be a piece of news until I became a mother. Now, to me HFMD is a scary and dirty word, the mentioned of it scared the shit out of me.
Then came the news of attempt abduction at Ang mo Kio hub. In the past, again this will be just a news and discussion topic but now, it is a real concern to me. Singapore is no longer safe and how should I watch out for my kids when we go out??
Many time, we heard other parents talking about how good is parenthoods but not how worried they are as parents. Are we really only suppose to talk about the good and not the bad?? When I feel less than worthy and competent, what should I do?? I can't force myself to stay positive with all the worried and concern that I have. I need to know that i can received help when I need to and I will be alright and all this shall pass!!
First, came on the news on HFMD, this used to be a piece of news until I became a mother. Now, to me HFMD is a scary and dirty word, the mentioned of it scared the shit out of me.
Then came the news of attempt abduction at Ang mo Kio hub. In the past, again this will be just a news and discussion topic but now, it is a real concern to me. Singapore is no longer safe and how should I watch out for my kids when we go out??
Many time, we heard other parents talking about how good is parenthoods but not how worried they are as parents. Are we really only suppose to talk about the good and not the bad?? When I feel less than worthy and competent, what should I do?? I can't force myself to stay positive with all the worried and concern that I have. I need to know that i can received help when I need to and I will be alright and all this shall pass!!
Weekend with the Twins
Sincere is recovering from his cold that he has been having for about two weeks. He still has abit of block nose and that kept him awake at the nite. Really heartache to see him toss and turn, trying to find the right position to sleep. I can't do much but stay up and watch him to ensure that he is ok.
Now, he is trying to sleep, hopefully the block nose will clear with the nose drop that I gave him earlier. My poor baby boy.
Righteous has recovered and other than a attention seeking girl when she is awake, she is really a sweeties and always so cheerful and happy. She is learning and able to follow some direction these days, thing are getting more fun and of cos challenging.
Now, he is trying to sleep, hopefully the block nose will clear with the nose drop that I gave him earlier. My poor baby boy.
Righteous has recovered and other than a attention seeking girl when she is awake, she is really a sweeties and always so cheerful and happy. She is learning and able to follow some direction these days, thing are getting more fun and of cos challenging.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Happy 1st birthday to Sincere and Righteous
Same time last year, we welcome the arrived of our twins and now they are turning one.
It has been a wonderful journey with lots of challenges and we foresee the road ahead will be full of colours and we are looking forwards to watch them grow.
Happy birthday, my darlings and we love you!!
It has been a wonderful journey with lots of challenges and we foresee the road ahead will be full of colours and we are looking forwards to watch them grow.
Happy birthday, my darlings and we love you!!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Double trouble
The twins started my weekend with running nose, sleepless night and trip to KKH A&E. Was exhausted but grateful that they gets better after taking the medication.
They also managed to sleep alittle longer. When the doctor told the type of running nose medicine i could opt for my twins, i immediately go for the one that said 'may have sedative effect'. That's a brainless choice right? All of us need the sleep.
They also managed to sleep alittle longer. When the doctor told the type of running nose medicine i could opt for my twins, i immediately go for the one that said 'may have sedative effect'. That's a brainless choice right? All of us need the sleep.
Friday, March 9, 2012
Thursday night!!
Looking forwards to having the babies home over the weekend. Missed them, I went over to HongKong last week and didn't bring them home for more than 10 days, yeah, that is a long time. They better still remember mummy and daddy.
Just clean out the house, getting ready to welcome them home. To note, i will be home alone with them over the weekend and that will be good bonding time.
Just clean out the house, getting ready to welcome them home. To note, i will be home alone with them over the weekend and that will be good bonding time.
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