This could be one of Grandma longest stay in Hospital, she was admitted on 2nd October 2011 and since then her condition fluctuate like the unstable stock market. It went high but mostly down. We thought we almost going to lost her the frist few days, it was an very emotional period then she suddenly seem to get better and get out of the Intensive care unit. I felt relieved only to learnt that they moved her out not because she she getting better but because the doctors felt that there was no more hope and nothing else can be done. These were the exact words of what the Doctor told me on a Friday afternoon. My tears rolled but Grandma proved the Doctor wrong and she hang on for another 3-4 weeks that followed.
Now, the doctor again said they have tried their best and exhausted all the anti-biotic that can possibily used and she is not responding to the medication. Her fever is persistent and seriously nothing more can be done.
They have taken off all anti-biotic on her and she is left to fence for herself now. Her condition did deteriorate fast and she looks bad from day to day. Weirdly instead of rushing to Hospital to see her, I am running away. I am having the fear of seeing her in this condition. I am scared and I am in denial. The next few days will be unpredictable for everyone. I am not hopeful that Grandma will recover, I only wish that she will give me a chance to say Goodbye and be with her at the FINAL HOUR.
