OMG - I am hopeless

I can't believed myself. I miscalculated my babies age. I kept thinking that they are 18 months when in fact, they are only 17 months. How can i possible made such a mistake? I have to literally sat in front of the calendar to count the months. I felt so useless. What kind of mother does that make me? This Sunday, I will have to send them early to my nanny place to go for a corporate golf game at Sentosa. I am really not keen in playing but I need to. I will make up to them for the lost time. I am planning a staycation with the Twins at RWS. This will be our first getaway with the babies. We need to try locate to explore dealing with them. I think it will be fun and counting down to that. Happy holidaying with my tiwns.

Full time maid or not??

I still can't make up my mind on having the full time maid. Weighing the pros and cons and yet we were unable to come to a conclusion. There too many points to consider. Thinking thinking thinking....

Dinning table

We had to give away our big lovely dinning table last year to make room for the twins when they were on walker. It has been a year since we do not have a dinning table at home and that feel really weird and incomplete for a family. I am someonoe who believed that family must sit and eat together at the dinning table. That is where communication and bonding happened. My mum never instill that habit in us but I am going to make sure my household follow that rule. Now that the twins are older, we decided that it is time that they learn about table manner and eating at the dinning table as a family. We learnt from our previous mistake and we bought a small table that meet the purpose but not overwhelm the little space that we have.Louis is setting up the table and it should be ready for use soon. I am looking forward to having dinner soon at our new dinning table.By the way, ever since my return from Perth, I have become more domesticated. The trip trigger the desired in me to cook and I really enjoy that. I bought fresh ingredient from the supermarket and look forward to cooking over the weekend. I am learning to cook new dishes too. I did think of going for cooking classes so that I am able to make dishes for my family, the taste of home cooked food.

Moving on to the next stage of parenthood?

It has been 18 months since the day the twins arrived and these 18 months definitely filled with lots of up and down and full of love. With the arrangement of having the twins staying over at my nanny on weekdays, my weekdays night are available to myself. I have the freedom to catch up with friends, stay back for entertainment and spend quality time with Louis on his off days. I truly enjoy my freedom but I think it is about time that I need to make adjustment to bring the twins back on a daily basis. They are older and I do need to spend more time with them and start nurturing them. I started to have this thought when I am seriously considering the option of employing domestic help. As the twins grow older, they are more demanding and can be difficult to manage when I am alone. And if we have an extra help, it will be only right that I bring them home daily. Once I get the DH, our freedom will officially ended and true blue parenthood will start for me and Louis. No more weekend parenting. I am missing my freedom already...

Post Perth Holiday

We are back from our Perth holiday. Were there for only 5 days and I think I had quite enough of the City. Perth is really lay back, everyone seem to be walking slower in Perth and nobody is rushing for time. But I must agree that the environment is rather peaceful and relaxing and the cold weather make it extremely cozy too. Nice first visit but I do not think that we will be back anytime soon.

We had a self drive holiday, we drove to Margaret river which is famous for the many winery and the local produces such as olive oil, jam, honey and the chocolate factory. Due to time constraint, we invited only two winery and the local produces factories. We checked into Heritage Rail for our night at Margaret river. Nice and cosy standalone hut for each guest room and the bed was super comfy. We had a good dinner at The Must at the town and we went back to drink the wine that we brought earlier due to the super cold night.

We continue our drive to visit other part of the tourism spots before driving back to Perth city.

I like self driven holiday in Australia, truly relaxing and we spend good quality time together. I didn't bother to shop in Perth. Everything is expensive and the fashion sense is just bad. We spent most of our money on foods and lazing at cafe.

One day, if possible, I would consider brining the twins to Perth or Melbourne for a trip.

Seeking part time help over the weekend

Ever since the push over the limit by the twins when they were sick, I have been thinking and planning for extra help during weekend when I have to be alone with them. Seriously they have growth and are two little demanding human being. I can no long managed them alone so additional help is much appreciated.

We thought of engaging full time maid but logistic and babysitting issue are tricky. I do not think a maid will be able to managed the twins alone during the day time and I would want them to be under the care of my nanny. If that is the case, either I have to bring everyone home daily or the maid has to stay at jurong.

So, I decided to search online for those weekend babysitting help and I found a few online. Made a few SMS and I have found someone. She will be able to come over to my place on weekend afternoon till night time which is exactly what I need. I have made the arrangement for her to come and help me and I hope this will be the solution to my weekend stress. Till then, I am so looking forward to my holiday in Perth.

I got a kiss from Righteous out of the blue.

I guess this is part of the joy of parenthood. Righteous was playing on her own and she walk over to give me a big long kiss on my cheek out of the blue. The feeling was amazing and electric, for the first time I have a satisfying feeling. Mother, woman are really easy to pleased, all we need is some form of appreciation and a simple kiss from my girl made me feel so loved and understand why I have to gone thru the previous tough time because the reward will come..and it came when you less expect it. Thank you, Lord!!

Phobia

I must admit I am having phobia of taking care of the twins after last week experience. I am so scared that I got cold feet now just by them not wanting to sleep or being abit out of norm. And I only feel relieve when they are my nanny. Does this sound terrible?? I am actually feeling scare...