Ah girl blood flow..

During my 25 weeks routine ultrasound, I was alerted that Baby girl is resisting the blood from me, the scan result was different from the detailed scan where blood flow was normal. Nevertheless, Doctor said there are no cause for worried for now since there are no sign of complication. However, I have go back for an scan to check the condition.

Went back today at 26 weeks to scan, thanksfully, the blood flow is now normal for both babies. Like what the doctor said, the resistance from baby girl could be mother natural way of wanting to flow more blood to baby boy since the boy is smaller in size than the girl. Anyway, both babies are within the good size for their weeks...

Looking back at 2010

Happy boxing day, hope you have a good time opening up your pressies today, that's provided if you have managed to hold the tearing of the gift and wait till today.

Christmas ended so quickly and now we are all preaparing to welcome 2011. Times really fly too fast this year. I realised I did not set any resolutions for 2010 and I should not set anything for 2011 too. Anyway, 2010 have been a special year for me, mainly because I am pregnant, not with Sincere only but with Righteous as well. This is the best thing that happened to me this year and I am fully and totally grateful to GOD for HIS grace. Feeling their kicks and knowing that they are growing well is something that money can never buy. The loves that I received from my friends and family also warmth my heart, thank you folks!!

What will 2011 be? Not sure but it will be good and better year than before. Blessed New Year...all my dear friends..

Christmas Shopping for the little ones

Was at Toys R us and we overheard some interesting conversation and negotiation that parents had with their kids.

Conversation 1:
Father: You can choose whatever you want!!
Kid: I want this.....(happily)
Father: No, I don't like it...
Kid: Huh??? (what the F*** look)

Conversation 2:
Kid: Daddy, I want this becos I don't have this at home..
Father: You don't have alot other things at home, does that mean you can buy everything here??
Kid: Can meh???
Father: ....walk away...

Conversation 3:
Mother: Darling, have you decided what you want?
Girl: Yes, this make up set...
Mother: Are you sure??
Girl: Yes...mummy
Mother: Okie, choose something else...
Girl:...what the hell...hahahaha

I asked Louis, will we become parents like them?? We asked the kids to choose their present and ended up saying NO to whatever they want. Louis said NO..because he will not even ask them, he will decide the present instead..We shall see!! Anyway, the store was a big chaos when we were there, the parents and kids are all going crazy choosing the presents, we were there for our nieces and nephew too..hope they like whatever we have choose for them.

Christmas is coming...

2010 passes too fast and next week is Christmas already, I am not fully prepared for the festive yet, too many things to do and there are too little time left.

There are undone Christmas shopping and I hate to join the crowd on the weekend. What should I do?

I am still thinking if I should host Christmas dinner at my place since I only make use of the Oven once every year, will be a waste not to host dinner during this season but at the same time I am feeling lazy..someone needs to help me!!

Anyway, I better settle my Christmas shopping before the it is too late...Merry Christmas to all dearies and to my little boy and girl who are actively kicking me everyday..Mummy is looking forward to see both of you in a few months time..Love ya!!

Company D&D

In celebration of our company 10th years anniversary, we had our celebration at Singapore Turf Club. The celebration was considered successful in my opinion, for once our colleagues were creative and sporting, they all dressed up for the occassion according to the theme that their team leader had planned.

Like any events, there were some hipcups at the beginning and like all situations, it will all turn out well and in the end, we did survive the celebration.

We had enough prizes for our lucky draw for all confirmed colleagues and everyone is dying for the 4 iPads that we had. Unfortunately, I am not one of the winners, I won an Nokia X5 instead. Not complaining since Big Boobs was unlucky again and again....


Our lucky draw prizes


Poor big boobs - She got umbrella..hahhaha

What a happening December 2010

December 2010 is happening, other than looking forward to Christmas, the events that are happening just make live alot of completed...hahaha..

Had my annual retreat at Bintan and we did it again at Banyan Tree, the trip was lovely and heavenly, no chopy ferry trip and groomy weather. Everything was just perfect except that we did not get a free upgrade this year. Nevertheless, the room that we paid for was still extravagant enough for us to go GAGAGAGAGA!!

December is a concert month for us too...watch 'Cinder-rela' with Louis and we have two more show coming up. 'Crazy Christmas' and 'River Dance'...I am a supporter of local production but interestingly, I missed all the show for the past few years and this year, finally get down to booked it...thanks to big boobs too..without her booking for me, I might miss the show again!!

Knowing that when the twins arrived, there will be limited ME time and COUPLE time...the thought makes us treasure our time alot more. We do not waste our free weekend morning lazing in bed anymore, instead we started exploring breakfast and nice chilled out places. We need to enjoy the peace and calm before the storm hit us.

We are half way thru Dec and I know there are more to come...will fully enjoy the season and look forward to the future...not forgetting the nice Christmas gift shopping for my loved one...

An eloborated wedding!!

Attended the most elaborated wedding ever, lots of personalisation and customisation done to the smallest details. The painfully allocated seat with personalised menu to every indivisual, the fresh flowers arrangement on every table, the napkin was nicely tie up with personalised ribbons with the name of the bride and groom and not forgetting the Live Jazz music throughtout the dinner and many more.

The bride is an experienced banquet manger herself and am sure she had her fair share of planning for many wedding couples and her wedding was put together of all the ideas and effort of her past experiences.

I must agreed, the wedding was well organised with lots of effort put in and the cost must be high too. Hope the couple enjoy every moment of it...cos to guest like me...the details really only create a moment of impression, and nothing more.

Detailed scan at week 21

Went for the routine detailed scan, the procedure went well and it was confirmed with picture that it is one boy and one girl. The scan started well with the focus on baby 1, which is ah girl. Girl is hyperactive and refuse to stay at one positon long enough for the detailed to be capture, so it took us awhile to see everything. When come to the Boy, it is the direct opposite. Ah boy refuse to move and stayed on the same postion that his face feature detailed can't be seen. When the Doc try to move him, he covered his face with his hands...why are they so different. I went for a walk, came back for the scan and he is still in the same position. Ended up, I have to go back to KKH for the scan again on Monday. Ah boy, now the scan is double the cost...happy???

Week 20!!

I am week 20 today and this is the half way mark of my pregnancy. I have completed 50% of the journey and 50% more will be the day I meet my twins. So looking forward. Before that happened, we will be seeing the twins next week during the detailed scan, hopefully two of them are growing well.

Knowing that after the twins arrived, it will be tough for myself to enjoy my me time or couple time as much as we want, so we started our Breakfast date routine again. It was great spending lazying morning at my favourite Starbucks cafes...lovin it. There is a nice place at Horse City (near to Turf City) called Picotin, we shall try it next time.


The nice pastries at Starbucks


Breakfast with myself.

Recently we tried out Burger Shack at Bt Timah area, the burger was juicy and tasty, the bread was soft and delicious, best thing is, the price is not expensive, similar to Carl Junior. That will be my favourite Burger place for now.

Burger Shack - Nice place


My Juicy burger and Fries

It is a boy and a girl

The gender is out, I am having a baby boy and baby girl. Isn't that nice and sweet, my little girl will be able to to be dress in those cute little dresses. Little boy, will stick to the boring looking skirt and pants...life is unfair, what to do??

When Doc told me that it is a boy....and a girl, I was thrilled. I was mentally preapred for 2 boys and the girl is really a gift..for now. 19 years down the road will be a different story, i guess.

I can officially feel their kicks too. Not all the time but when they do kick hard, it feels like a little bruise at one part of my tummy..and it has a lingering effect (pain effect). Now, they are only 18 weeks and their kicks will only get stronger. Come on babies, kicks all you want, you will get it when I meet you next year.

Adopt A Wish Campaign

Every year Boy's Bridage run this 'Adopt A Wish' campaign during Christmas period to help to fulfill the wish of the kids from the HOME. Objective of adopting a wish is to get the donor to get involved in the process participating in the community work, althought shopping for a gift is such an easy task for many of us, especially during Christmas, but not everyone is willing.

This year, our company participated in this program and we as organiser hope to share this sense of community responsibility and warmth with our colleagues. Unfortunately, not everyone appreciate the thought, we are fine but certainly hate the discouragement and negative feedback that came.

Nevertheless, there are nice and heartwarming people that make our effort all worthwhile. I have colleagues who are willing to give more than what the kids wishes to make them happeier. Frankly, this is enough to make our day!!

Eventful 2nd Trimester

Knew that there are more progress to look forwards to in 2nd Trimester, but not all progress are fun to have. I experienced sudden sugar dip twice so far and they came so fast that I do not even have time to react. The sudden dip causes giddyness and slight blackout, I need immediate sugar intake to counter the sudden dip. I am prepared since the first attack but the 2nd still came uninvited. I have since stocked up chocolate, sweets, raisin and biscuit in my bag, but still..haiz....Anyway, sudden sugar dip is common during pregency as the babies growth, they demand more blood and this could happened.

I have also experienced leg cramp during my sleep, no joke, it wasn't fun to have it during the middle of the night or anytime of the day.

I also have sleeping problem, I woke up many times during the night and have difficulities falling back to sleep, so I really appreciate a good night of uninteruppted sleep..when will that be?

Good things, I am more energetic and able to last longer thru the day and able to enjoy all foods for now. I think I am also feeling the babies kicks althought I can't really be sure since the kicks felt like tummyache sometime. So far so good for now...

Milestones Celebration

To celebrate the start of 2nd trimester, I bought Sincere and Righteous their first soft toys. They will be travelling with me everyday in the car. So sweet!!

I have also ran out of clothes to wear, the belly is getting more and more obvious. Went to Marina Square and I bought $300 worth of clothes, will they last me thru the whole pregnancy?

Had my gynae appointment yesterday, the twins are now closed to 8cm long and they are doing well. I will see them again in 4 weeks times and the detailed scan is 7 weeks from now. Then I will be 20 weeks already. Cool!!

By the way, gender not confirmed at this stage, the stand in gynae said he can't see, so will ask my irresponsible but experienced gynae when I see him during the next visit.

Farewell to Mrs Lee

If you have not read, Mrs Lee passed away on 2nd Oct at 5.40pm. Search online and you should be able to find articles and tributes about her. She will always be remembered as a Tower of Strength by MM Lee and the rest of Singaporean.

Was sadden by the news of her passing. Yes, she had been bedridden, she is on life-support but she is still there for MM Lee. Now that she is gone, he had lost his soulmate and it will be a tough journary for the old man.

Goodbye Mrs Lee and MM Lee, please stay strong!!!

Gone the 1st Trimester and welcome the 2nd

1st trimester is officially over and I am so glad. I visit the loo less frequently and I do not have the irritiating cough and blocked nose anymore. What had came was heartburnt and insomnia during some nights.

There are more exciting progress to look forwards to in this 2nd Trimester, babies ears are fully developed and they can start hearing me, I must mind my language from now on and importantly I should be able to start feeling their kongfu kicks. Do you think they will kick at each other?

I am also running out of clothes to wear, I need to buy some nice maternity clothings. Time to spend money again.

The Twins at week 12 - BOYS??

Had the babies down symdrone scan done today, basically doctor said we should be happy with the result since the blood test and scan are all within normal range. Okie, we are happy. With the scan, I saw the babies moving actively, so glad and so I asked the doctor if he can see the gender of the babies....and he said...'likely boys'!!!! I gave out a very loud 'HUH' and I think I gave him a shocked and he immediately said...NOT CLEAR, you should ask your gynae during your next visit.

On the bright side, the twins are growing well, they are now average at 55mm, that's a good size for the babies.

My next appointment is 5th Oct, will be mentally prepared for the gender, if really two boys, I might try for a girl........................................................you must be crazy if you believed this..haha!!

Ultrasound pic of the twins at week 9.

Spending time with my Niece and Nephew

Have not seen them for a long time and they have growth so much. My nephew is turning 2 in few months time. Rare weekend that we get to spend time together and play. This will be tough when the twins arrived, I probably will not have the energy to bring the twins out and entertain my two other little darling.

So Wenn Wenn, all your daddy fault for not allowing me to bring you out when I can well afford the time and energy...

Unconditional mother's love till it hurt???

I love my grandma but I hate her rotten love that she had for my uncles. Her unconditional mother's love towards her son causes hurts and disappointment to others. Unfortunately, she knew but she can't control her love.

She is willing to compromise her own discomfort just to give convenience to someone that her love will never be recipocated, at least not in the same way that she give. I am not jealous, I knew where I stand in her heart and I know she love me dearly, I am just sadden by her actions and sometime I really wanted to walk away from her. But that will hurt her even more, isn't it?

Since young, I do not allow myself to be hurt by favoritism towards male. I have made my stand that if I am not treated equally as my brother, I will not be nice. My mum had a taste of it and she knew how much it matters to me. That's also one of the reason why I hate it when everyone is saying that I am having two boys. I will love my babies for whatever gender they are and will protect them against the possible favoritism set by the family....

Parenting style

Ever since the pregnency started, I have been thinking what kind of parents will we be? We always joke about what we will be if we are parents but now I will have to start thinking and maybe do a little planning.

Louis always want to be the nice guy, what an easy role to be and he think I should be the one disciplining the kids since Mother fit that role better. Since when right? We have discussed about this but never in a serious manner, I guess this is a new roles that we are both engaging without experience, so we will learn on the job. Good or bad, we will leave it to Sincerity and Righteouness to decide.

Strollers for the Twins

I know it sounds abit early to be looking at strollers, but it is frustrating to know that options are limited and prices are high. I want to be prepared and get the right strollers that will fit into our lifestyle. Althought comfort for the babies is a consideration point, I am more concerned about the size and mobility of the strollers, safety is another concern.

Why is price not an issue?? Becos my dear Brother had kindly agreed to sponsor the strollers and other stuffs that the twins might need. Suddenly I felt so pampered and blissed, is he doing this for me or for the twins?? Haha, whatever is the reason, I stand to gain.

Thank you Brother and the search continue................

Hunger attack

For the past few weeks, I am constantly tired and I don't have craving or desired to eat more. Interestingly, this 2 days I started to have hunger attack, I am hungry 2 hours after eating. The hunger is not the gentle reminder but the dying type that I must EAT something NOW. I have two hungry babies that constantly need to be fed and I am going to be just BIG..Damn!!

Over the weekend, I have stocked up foods and snacks for the coming week, but I don't think they will be enough.

I have bought Sweet potato, steaming it for afternoon snack. I have bought different kind of biscuits and fruits. As I type, I think I can eat something again....

Growing babies

Went for my gynae visit yesterday, was eager to know the progress of the babies. Hate the wait for Doctor but no other options are available other than wait.

Anyway, had my scan and comforting to know that both of them are growing well, from 7mm to 23mm now within 2 weeks and both are almost the same size which is such a relieved. Heard their little heart beat too...beating damn fast which is the norm.

The next appointment is 5 weeks later, I might be able to know the gender by then, will it be one boy one girl? I certainly hope so. Meanwhile, first trimester will be over in 3 weeks time, shall go for a celebration then.

Not so organised event

I had atteneded 6 NDP Appreciation Dinner event for the sponsor, the one that I attended last night was THE MOST disorganised one so far. We did not received the confirmation invitation, they have ineffiecient seats for the events, and when the DPM arrival, they failed to make the annoucement and poor DPM had to walk into the hall with no claps and weird looks on everyone faces.

The amcees for the night did a terrible job in reading out the organisations name and all was bad. The only thing that worth some praise is the ending part where the committee show the flash back of NDP 2010 and the songs that they played. It was very touching and I felt like crying and I am definitely proud to be a Singaporean!!

Once again, Poor DPM, if I have the gut, I would have stand up alone and clap when he walk in but I did not...guess i will only do it if it is LKY.

Discomfort...not fun

I can't wait for my first trimester to be over, according to report, the early symptons of pregnacy should be clear in 2nd trimester, hopefully.

I know my body is adjusting to the new changes, I am not only fatigue, the indigestion is hitting me hard at night. Any amount of food during dinner is too much and the discomfort will last throughtout the long night, my beauty sleep is therefore affected.

I promised that the two little rascals will have to pay back all this discomfort, the big rascal will have to suffer more for now....

It is babies...

Scan done yesterday and both of them are growing and I can see their little heart beats. Yes, offificially I am having Twins. Sincerity and Righeousness are both coming at the same time. Hopefully the next few months will be a smooth journey, I can't imagine how big I will become. Breastfeeding better be effective in cutting away the fat man.

The EDD is April 2011 but with Twins, likely will be earlier.

Joke is my boss asked if I will quit my job after giving birth? Frankly, quiting never come across my mind, especially now with Twins, I need the job and money more right? Ya, mother instinct might kicks in but who is going to feed the babies? MAD. At this point, what I need to job security and yet he post me this question. Thanks lei..

Unlimited Anticpation

I am sure I am not the only one that felt this way. Pregnancy is a journay of unlimited anticipating and waiting of next appointment and next result. After knowing I was pregnant, of cos I was thrilled, then came the question of twin or not twin which I will only know tomorrow, yes, waiting again.

After that will be waiting for different check up and scan and waiting for the result. In between the weeks and months will be wild thought that something might happened. This is kind of driving me nuts.....Oh NO....

I guess, the craziness dose not stop at 9 months, in fact, the climax is yet to come...when the little thing is here, the world will be upside down once and again.

Sleepy spell

Considered myself blessed that I have no extreme symptons of pregancy, my bloatedness have recover and everything else is normal. Except, I feel tired easier and I can barely open my eyes by 10pm. I felt asleep watching News like what my mum did all the time..

I have asked and tiredness is normal and it happened, so I am gald that I am not alone.

I did not wieght myself before the start of my procedure and now I would not know what is the progress of my weight, hate the idea but just have to face it right?? I read online that in the early stage, I only need extra 300 Calories per day to carry me thru, so watching the diet to avoid overweight is so crucial.

Watching NDP 2010

I am proud to be a Singaporean and the NDP is indeed a very big event that the nation put together every year. The amount of labour and resources involve to make the event successful can only be provided by the army.

I really dislike people who critized NDP or any negative comments made about Singapore when they did nothing. I saw comment on FB saying that NDP program suck, their uniform is ugly and etc and what have these people done to contribute to the show?? NOTHING but negative feedback..irritating.

The only thing I did not do on NDP was standing up to say pledge at 20:10, I did it sitting down..haha

Yes, I am pregnant!!

Yes, after the long wait, I got my pregancy result yesterday and I am 4 weeks pregnant. Yeah, so happy. I will know if I am having twin on the 17th Aug when I go back for my scan.

I can't full comprehen my current status yet, was praying and hoping and now that I am pregnant, I don't really know what to do. If you asked if I feel pregnant?? I have never been pregnant before, so I don't know. But I feeling the bloatness and I blup alot, does that sounds like a pregnant mummy?

I have told half of my world about my status and I am so happy to share my news. My aunt is asking me to be a good girl, have I not being one so far? I promised to be careful and eat well..okie?

And about time to get back NEW YEAR ANG BAO from everyone!!!

Time flies...

After resting for 2 weeks, time to go back to work. Just when I am about to get use to the lazing around and immediately, holiday ended.

Appreciated the break and looking forward to get back to work too. The next date that I am hoping to arrive faster is 2nd Aug and knowing the result..is your fingers and eyes still crossed?

Farewell to Penny's granny

Unexpected farewell are always the toughest and most shocking. His granny left in a manner that I believed he would have this little regret. His granny was alone in her final hour and it was sad to learn how she was found.

Again, this is very valuable lesson learnt, spend time with our loves one. Let's not let any regret hit us if we can still do something about it.

Mr Lau, sorry for not showing up at your granny's wake.

Torture staying at home

Since the extraction and transfer, I have been advice rest, not carrying out heavy stuffs and no strenuous activities (jogging is a NO NO). However, Louis does not allow me to step out of the house although the nurse said, slowing walking like shopping is fine as long as I don't carry heavy stuffs. Of cause, the bloatedness cause by the sore ovaries is also a factor that make me unwell and unable to do much.

After staying home for 4 days, lying in the bed most of the time almost drive me nuts. It just make me feel so lazy and lethargy. So, I beg Louis to bring me to United Square for a short while. We went there for dinner and bought some fruits and I woke up feeling refresh this morning. Haha

By the way, on Friday, when Doctor and nurse were checking on my condition and progress, they asked me how's my appetite? They advice, even if I don't feel like eating, I must force myself to eat, tough but I must try. Sigh, but my problem is....I don't have that issue, my appetite is good, I am eating on time and normal even when the discomfort caused by the bloatedness was at it peak. Only thing is, I can't eat too much, cause me indigestion, so the solution is eat less but more frequently, I am fine with that arrangement.

Embyro Transfer

Finally, transfer completed and the process was swift. While Doctor Loh was performing the transfer, he had a deep medical discussion with another senior doctor. The scene was amusing, they hehaviour as if they are discussing work over a cup of coffee and all this while I was lying there looking at both of them. I have 11 embyro, 2 are in my womb now waiting to harvest, 9 will be freeze for later used. Another 2 might mature before freezing.

The two embyro that are transferred are grade 5 and grade 4, grade 5 is the best. So, people, time to cross all your body parts and pray that these two funny looking embyro will be Sincerity and Righteousness very soon.

Egg Extraction

The egg extraction procedure take place on Wednesday morning, if I remember correctly, the whole process is about 15min. But the after OPs rest took 4 hours before I am allow to leave. I was given deep sedation and I vividly open my eyes during the ops and hear some noise, of cos I can't figure what's going on. First time in the Op theatre, it look quite like what we saw on TV, very bright, lots of equipments and lots of people.

Sedation came with some side effects, that's why I need to rest to let the effect wear off, unfortunately I got 3 out of the possible 5 side effects. I experienced faintness, tiredness and nausea. I vomit out hot milo that the nurse just gave me, can't be help, I am not very friendly with milo these days.

Did I said the nurse told me I got 31 eggs extracted and I have most for the day? I don't know what reaction that the nurse was looking for, but that piece of news does not excite me. 31 eggs? Does that make me sound like mother hen?? Yuck!! And having that many eggs is not a good thing for me, due to the quantity, my after effect bloatedness will be BAD and is still bad up to this point.

What happened next? Friday, we must be back for the transfer, apparently only need 10min, no sedation required. Thereafter, I must really rest (best in bed) and not stress the body. As the embyro will take at least 5-6 days to stick to the linning. What left after is waiting and praying, I will know if I am pregnant on 2 August.

Can't wait for tomorrow

I am feeling very uncomfortable all over, can't wait for the many follicles to be remove from my body. After the night jab on my thigh, everything just got worst.

Follicles are ready

The scan today shown that my follicles are ready, out of the 20 follicles, 7 of them are bigger than 16mm and 4 more might be ready by tonight. The size of the follicles explained the bloatedness and discomfort that I am experiencing. In fact, there is a condition called Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS) caused by too many follicles developed due to the drugs given, which I might be expose to. I was advice to monitor my body condition and the side effects. I think I am fine so far...I think la.

My night jab is schedule at 10pm, it sounds painful according to the nurse, nothing can be done but go with flow. Today also mark the end of daily jab..Yeah!!

The nurse was telling me about my admission on Wednesday, she mentioned, no make up, no jewellery and no nail polish. I almost faint, no MAKE UP?? Fine, I can wear my nerdy glasses but NO NAIL POLISH?? I just did my gel nails and that costs me $138 and she wants it remove?? I was trying to tell her, 'this is gel, not nail polish, can I keep it?' She gave me a straight look, 'Sorry, you have to get it off before wednesday'!! Ouch..can you feel the pain?

Current body condition

Is my body reacting or getting ready for the procedure?? Having mild cramp, bloatedness and sore nipples.

Stage 3 and Stage 4

Had my 3rd ultrasound scan to check on the development of follicles and my inner linning. Good news was my linning is good thickness and I have 20 follicles, 9 on left and 11 on right. Meaning to say, I am on my way to start stage 3 and stage 4.

I must be back to KKH on next Monday for another scan to check the size of the follicles and on Monday night, I must return for stage 3, a night jab to fertlise the eggs. On Wednesday, I will be admited for eggs extraction and Friday for embyro implanation. During these period, I will be given two weeks hospitalisation leave to rest.

Suddenly, the process is moving so fast, it is getting me excited and raising my anticipation. This is also the first time that I will be away from work for the longest period of time. I have share my plan with my mum and she is showing her support by making me bird nest, that's the way to go, mummy.

Walkaround

Standing at my balcony, I always wonder what's the distance around my neighbourhood and I found it out yesterday with the help of 'iMapmyrun' application on my iPhone.

Initiately, I was lazing around, refuse to move much, then a strong desired got hold of me and I got myself ready and was out of the house in 5 mins. Started walking without any warming up and I am paying for the price now. One round of walking is about 1.4km. I did 2 rounds within 27 min which translate to 100m per min. Nice pace but can be faster to burn more fat. I am joining my colleagues for the training tomorrow and I can find out the exact walking distance. No more self-denial nor assumption on the distance anymore..Harsh fact of life!!

Precious letters

My mum gave the final order to clear my room 4 years after I officially moved out. I have ton of things in my room that includes photos, soft toys, nails related stuffs, CD and my precious letters. I thrown out most of the stuffs but I kept the letters.

It has been a long while since I last received a letter from a friend, reading back the letters brought back fond memories and some mixed feeling. Going thru the letters, some are from friends that I have lost contact long time ago, some I can't even remember we exchanged letters and of cos lots of them are from friends that came a long way with me.

Today, email, facebook and blog are so convenience and available that we forget the feeling of receiving the handwritten letter in the mailbox, what will be the feeling like? Before that, do we even have an address book these day that kept our friends addresses? I need to find my address book.

life so good

nice korean lunch

Stage 2!!! - Puregon injection

Puregon medication produced synthetically by recombinant DNA technology and is a purer form of FSH, which is used to stimulate the development of serval follicles, thus increasing the estrogen hormone production and building up the uterus lining. Consituted in a cartridge and it is given subcutaneous for 10 to 14 days in an accurate and ready to use pen delivery system.

Basically, in the layman term, it simply mean Puregon jab is to encourage and stimulate multiple eggs production. Meaning to say, starting tomorrow, I have to do two Jab daily. Lucrin and Puregon jabs...can't wait!!!

Stage 3 is a night jab that need to be taken at the hospital and thereafter for stage 4 is where I will get 2 weeks of hospitalisation leave. If all is on schedule, the leave should happened by mid of July. I can't remember what will happen next, all this stages was communicated to me while the nurse was taking my blood, she was fast and this is all I can remember.

life so good

natsumi teriyaki chicken burger from MOS burger

life so good

how am i going to look for my clothes??? faintz .

I am not sure how long will Louis take to replace the bar in my wardrobe that just gave way, instead of having nicely pressed dresses to wear, I have to make do with crumple clothes for work for the next few days..angry!! And worst till, I will have a hard time trying to find the right thing to wear..

life so good

my wardrobe collape

So, Pineapples really work!!

Truthfully, I was feeling really affected and disappointed after the KKH appointment on Thursday, I was concern about the uncertainty of stage 2. Since I have started the process, it will be my biggest regret if I can't complete it.

I was dying for my menses to arrive as soon as possible and I had 5 slices of pineapple within 2 days. Old wife tales works, it gave me the comfort of at least feeling in control and able to do something about the situation. The wait is over, my Da Yi Ma is here..WooHoo...PBB promised to pray for me when she goes to church on Sunday, you can still pray for me...all prayer are welcome!!

As much as I wanted to contain my own expectation of the whole procedure, I can't help but feeling pressure from within. Is this the side of the unbalance hormones?

life so good

My kind of salad

Hormones not under control??

Had my followed up appointment today, did the ultrasound and blood test. Result indicated that my hormones is not under control and i can't start stage 2, instead i have to continue my hormones suppress injection and wait for another week.

My menses is late, don't know for whatever reason and my inner lining is too thick. So disappointed, i have to pray hard that menses come before next thursday, else the process might be interrupted.

Daily life

grandma mood not too good

Darling. Back late. Rem to lock the door

Message from louis whenever he will be home late. Ever since we moved to the new place, i have forgotten to lock the door for at least 5 times. I have learnt my lesson, really, i don't want louis to develop heart attack mah.

Low Carbo meal at Carl's Junior

Since the start of low Carbo diet, it is always a question of what to eat that can meet my needs (this only happened when I am with Louis...nothing new to him anyway). Yesterday, we were at Vivo and he suggested Carl's Junior, Burger is full of Carbo, so what can I eat?? Initiately, I am thinking of having Fish fingers then I saw someone having her burger without the bread, so I check out with the order counter and they offer Low Carbo burger...Yeah, goodies of the burger without the carbo...I am so going to Carl's Junior from now on!!!

DIY

My home cook dinner, tofu, brocoli, bai he, beet root, mushroom and cherry tomato. Does it look yummy? Anyway, I love this 'dish'. I had tried eggs with smoked salmon for breakfast, very tasty too. will I be lighter soon???

Needle poking skill is improving n my low carbo diet

I think I am getting better at the daily jab, I wouldn't say I am an expert now but at least I am exploring ways of injection to reduce the pain or feel no pain at all. Sometime, I still failed but getting there.

I have so many things to do every morning, shower, make up, make breakfast, needle poking and drink my vinegar, oh my, I sure can multi-task.

I am trying out low carbo diet in hope to reduce weight. So I am cutting out rice and bread almost totally in my meals (tough, cos i am such a rice and bread lover), and replacing my carbo with alot of vege and fruit, at least for Breakfast and Dinner. I am blessed that I love all foods, else how do I survived right? I have stocks up my fridge wth Strawberry, Mango, Oranges and Grapes. Sounds so yummy right??


My big bowl of strawberry for dinner.

No more aching jont

3rd day of poking and no more aching joint, feeling ok. I have started my no carbo intake plan, I want to trim away my body fat. Even my bro maid said 'you fat' to me, how much more can I avoid?? No serenous exercise so I am going for brisk walking, going for a longer walk. Way to go....

Official Poking time

Yesterday was the 21st day and the day to start the poking (injection). This is stage 1 of injection Lucrin to suppress the release of FSH and LH hormones from the pituitiary, causing 'down regulation' in preparation for IVF. I will need to continue this Lucrin (daily poking) for 28 days. By 15th day, will be the next stage, going for ultrascan to determine if I can start the 2nd injection (so it will be 2 poking daily from then on).

I am feeling the unwanted side effect, I am having aching joint and a bit of discomfort all over. I hope this is only because my body is trying to get use to the foreign invasion of Lucrin and it will not get worst. (body, be friendly la)

Since I will have little needle hole on my tummy, I will try to make it into some design, maybe a star or flower...at least something for me to look forward to do daily.

By the way, the needle poking is a little painful hor!!

My supply of needles and alcohol swipe...

Angela and Darren - Congratulation!!

Dear Angie, congratulation, looking forward to November 2010...time to LIM KOPI to Or LIM TEH?? LIM MILO also can...

I have a plan but I can't do it alone

I have two grandaunt and two granduncles from my maternal family and I met them recently at my youngest cousin baby shower. I am the 3rd generation and the senior said it will be a pity if 2nd and 3rd generation don't meet up and worst, don't know each other.

Indeed, I may remember these relatives and recognise their faces, but so what cos that does not mean anything. I am thinking of a mega family gathering where 1st, 2nd and 3rd generation get together, mingle and know each other...

I bounce the ideas with my grandma and she is said she wants it, grandma hardly gave such strong response and I think we should do it too. Youngest Grandaunt health is not doing well and let do a gathering where good memories can be created for everyone...And I definitely can't do this alone, I need help to plan and coordinate to make this happen...Volunteers...Anyone??

Whatever will be....

When enough is no longer enough, I do not know what else can be done. When support became a burden and disappointment, what do we do? Whatever will be...will be..

iPhone and blackberry

Thanks to M1 multiple SIM, I can own two handsets with one mobile number and riding on 1 data plan. Does this mean that I can max out my plan and be a smart customer for once? We shall see,.., As a matter of fact, while I am excited and blogging about the multiple SIM, the 2nd SIM is current not working as expected, so I have to check with M1 tomorrow. Hopefully, I am not over promised and under delivered.

New Hairdo

It took me a while to make this decision, cut my full fringe. It was tough because I really have not idea what will be the outcome and I am not at the age to try new hairdo...thing is, what age is consider the right age to try right?

It was quite an impulse thing to do and I know I will chicken out if I don't do it and I went. And now, this is how I look. Review from people around me....very mixed comments...kind soul people said I looks good...not so kind soul people said....you shall guess it yourself...haha

Decision making

Not the major, life threatening decision but enough to keep me occupied and surf thru the net to find the answer.

iPhone-able? Should I or should I not? I am a total Blackberry betrayer, I am moving from the BLACK side to the DARK side, I am convinced and ready but my mobile plan is not. And should I wait for 4G or settled for 3.5G now? I am exhausted!!!

I am re-bonding my hair, and thinking of cutting my fringe, would I look good? Am I trying to act cute?? NO, only trying to look young!! Should I or Should I not?

Last but least, I should stop giving myself excuses not to jog....I am going jogging tonight, the fat that lingering around my waist and arm is killing me. I must stop the FAT Invasion. I will think about the above 2 issues while I jog....haha

Diana F+ mini

I have recently bought 3 new lomo camera, A fisheye, a supersampler and a diana F+ mini. Each camera create different effect and I am so excited about my new addition. I have not complete the first roll for both Fisheye and Supersample but I have finish up two rolls of film on my diana F+ mini.

It was fun taking photos but because it run on films and unlike digital camera, there is no viewer and the only way to see the picture is after developing (yes, the traditional way). After looking at my virgin work on my diana, I can only said, my photography skill need ALOT of improvement. Here are some photo, don't expect too much..all photo were taken in Hong Kong during our recent trip.


[Trying to be artistic and took this building in Central, Hong Kong)


[Who doesn't like an Audi???]


[Me, posing for the camera with menu]


[This pic quite cool right, I got the talent, lack the skill]

[This is her fav pose]

[Vain pot, ever ready for the camera]

Gynae appointment

I received conflicting information from the hospital and ended up with a Gynae appointment with Dr Loh before the blood test. Fine, since the appointment is also on Sat morning, I have no issue with it and for the first time, I am so glad that we are only a stone throw away from the hospital, woohoo.

Dr Loh did not know that I have already make the appointment to start in May (the procedure to start is to call the centre directly what), he thought I need second opionion from him. He was furious when he found out that the appointment was a mixed up...bloody hell, that's not my fault right? He asked 'don't you know how to use the computer, why didn't you email me the request??' His kind intention was worry that the centre might make a mistake and I have to wait even longer. Anyway, he wish me luck and said he will meet me again soon.

What a morning!! Anyway, had my blood test and the next appointment is in June, thus till then, life is as normal as before. Maybe not entirely, at least I am trying not to drink alcohol and eat unhealthy stuffs, I was at Balacava on Friday night and I had Bitter Lemon soda thru-out....can't believed it.

Hormone blood test

Called KKH to register and I have to return to the hospital 21 days later to collect the kit that will cost me $100 that is good for 28 days.

I remembered I am required to do some form of blood test but the lady did not mentioned anything. So, I asked and lukily I asked, hormone blood test needs to be done on the 2nd menses day, so I need to be there at 8am the next day.

Imagine, I didn't ask and she forgot, what's going to happen?

Was trying to read up and preapred myself for the journey, learnt that there were so many unsuccessful cases and miscarriages. Should I continue researching and reading?

Beginning of the Journey.....

The journey should have started one year ago but nevertheless it is starting now. May is the month and now is the time. I have called KKH and officially start the procedure. I thought I need to go down to KKH the moment I have my menses, I was wrong, luckily I called. I just need to called in on the heavy flow day, which is tomorrow (20th May 2010) and the appointment will be 21 days after. That is when the JOURNEY OFFICIALLY BEGIN........

Not having cold feet yet, I can't say the same 21 days later but I will not give up. If I am emotional stable and sane, I will write down my personal experience of the procedure. I can't be too certain if I can do that since the hormone changes might take over the whole sensibility of me.

If I became overly sensitive, unreasonable, emotional or demanding, bear with me, that's not the usual me...right? haha.

"Life is like.....

a penis, it is short but seems long when it gets hard". Saw this on my cousin FB status and this brighten my Monday morning.

Hilarious start to the definitely blued Monday. Back from the long weekend is a tortured as always but the best news is, I am going to Taipei this week, shopping time. Not my first time to Taipei though, still excited about the shopping and nice foodies.

Also, what do we do when the penis gets hard? I means when life gets hard? Good thing is I have funny, bimbo-ish, warmth memories that kept me going....

One of the recent incident:
Bimbo visited me on Good Friday, I was all ready, made up and dressed up when she came. She sat at my sofa, we lazed for awhile and I asked when we are leaving...then she said..'aren't you going to change?'...I told her...'I have already changed....do i look like i am wearing my PJ?'...=_=!!!

Can die...x 1000000000000000000000000000

The point is.....?

Singapore Resort World is the latest hot spot in Singapore, everyone is talking about it..have you been to Casino or Universal Studio? Have you?

I went to the Casino last night, thinking, I must at least visit the Grand Casino once right? I can't be the ignorant Singaporean who don't know how the first Casino in Singapore looks like right? Thinking if I spend $100 on the Levy, I must try my luck at the gambling table and maximise my $100 right? Right, I am the typical Singaporean who think I can be lucky and I must squeeze every bite of that levy out from the Casino and here I went, into the dark side...

Once into the Casino, I was absorbed by the 'money' calling me and I watched the players betting against the banker, the game was calling me and I bet. Of cos like every gambling movie, my first and second bet won and I got greedy, thinking, 'hoohoo yeah!! today is my lucky day, casino is sending me money' so, i bet and i bet and i lost and i lost. Ended up, I am really like the Typical Singaporean...I paid for a very expensive lesson...the lesson that could cost me a 2 years of magazines subscriptions or 168 burgers or a branded bag or...sian..

Thus, the point is...if you fell at the gamble table, pick yourself up from the gamble table again..go back with more money and win everything back once and for all..NOPE...Point is, play responsibily and within your mean. I was prepared to play and pay for my lesson (bloody heart pain)...are you?

Magazines

I have quit buying magazines for a long long time, decided that spending that $20 plus monthly is too expensive. I am one of the cheapo reader at the bookstore on weekend to browse thru the latest magazine, hoping to catch hold of the latest fashion info and gossip without spending the money.

I also catch up on the magazines articles whenever I am at the salon. I tried to read as much magazines as possible when I had my rebonding done, trying to break-even the cost of rebonding by reading as much magazines as possible, it is like a magazine reading buffet.

Nevertheless, there is one magazine that I can't quit - READER DIGEST. I love everything aboout RD, like the size, like the articles, like the Jokes, like the information and the survey conducted months and interesting finding. You should check it out and you will know what I am talking about.

Quote: Laugh and the whole world laughs with you, snore and you sleep alone...anthony Burgess.

Song of our life part II

Current song for big boobs - Ai Qing Zheng Shu by Yan Zi.

What's yours??? Which song speak to you..straight to your heart huh?

Sign of demential

We have watched numerous show about demential, old grannies and grandpa losing their memories and some lost their ways home. Most of the screens are touching and usually we might not think very much of it after watching them since it is drama afterall.

Now, I can't say the same anymore. Doctor said Grandma has demential and she is beginning to show the sign of it and it is getting worst day after day. Like the drama, the events of the past is clear to grandma and she can't remember the recent events. Grandma has problem differentiating reality and dream and she always feel unsafe when she is home alone with the maid. Grandma also throw little tantrum and demand little attention like a kid, really not funny.

But, one thing for sure, grandma loves to have us around her, she loves the company and the chatting when we were around. No matter how tired she look, she wants to stay with us and join in the conversation. I want to be with grandma more when she still remember who we are and enjoy our company. Ah ma, you will never forget who am I, right??

Songs of my life.......so far

Have you ever been inspired, encouraged, motivated, woke up or cheer up by any song? Has any song speak to you in a way so clear and dear that scared you? Did any song change your prospective in life?

I do and everytime when I listen to the songs, it will bring back the memories, be it good or bad. The song that impacted me most is 'Turn back time' in the movie 'Sliding Door', the song speak about the dilemna that I was in and it clealy show me the choice and I did.

There are many other songs, the break up song, the happy song, the party song, the friendship song, the repeated housemate song, the friend dancing on sofa song, what do you have?

1st Q of 2010 is coming to an end

Time flies faster than my blink, we are into March 2010 and before long, it will be June and Sept and Christmas will be here again..

Mahjong fever is still going strong, hands itch easily. We have been lunching in so often (t0 play MJ) that I can't remember when is the last time we go out for lunch? Weather is getting too hot to play MJ at my balcony, moving in the table to my room so that we can play in a nice cool environment..hehe

Planning a get away trip with Vanessa, Clubmed sound like a good place to explore, but March is full, so April is the only date. Bitch, try to make it la, once in a lifetime trip lei. Not forgetting the Taipei trip with hubby...heheh, trying to do as much travelling as possible before the starting the family plan, why time seem to be running out huh?

Stay home weekend

Quite a record breaking for me, I have stayed home on both Sat and Sun. No plan, no shopping, no activities. Wanted to visit my mum and grandma but I lazed and lazed and lazed and ended up doing some housework, cooked dinner and watched Ren Chi Charity show.

It is probably good to rest and prepare for the coming week...I will be 34th in few days time...time flies..

Happening January 2010

January 2010 is not over yet but alot had happened within these twenty over days. We had dinner with my dear cousin on her 22nd birthday, she is indeed a BIG girl now. Our birthday are both in Jan and we are both going to Vietnam, Ho Chi Minh (HCM) for holiday, in two different weekend in Jan.

HCM had change quite fair bite since my last trip 1.5years ago. We visited Cu Chi tunnel to see how the Vietnamness fought the american to protect their home. Amazing and scary and the tunnel was very well planned. HCM city is structured and within walking distance, so you are planning to visit HCM, forget about taking taxi and risk the possibility of cheated like my beloved cousin.

We had a team building drinking session with my colleagues last night and i felt like I am being sabotage the whole night. Lead by big boobs, the gang sang umpteen time of birthday songs to me and they ordered me a 'Waterfall', my colleagues were all getting their camera ready before i start drinking, so nice. Drinking do loosen up the tension and stress built up during work, that's provided the parties are willing to let go and of cos with a common TARGET in mind, it expediate the process (hopefully)...so if we have another drinking session, it will be Big boobs birthday..like it or not..Oh, we also welcome our new colleague, Joint-Account (Lian Ming) and we met his girlfriend, Security (JingWei) last night. I can be call, 'Add-Win' or 'Add-Silver'..while big boobs will be 'Handsome Ice'.

Counting down to 2010 at our new place

My only plan for the last day of 2009 was to do some marketing, in preparation for the coming gathering on 2nd Jan 10 and then stay home to wait for the special moment, watching firework from our new place and the we got to watch the 8 minutes long firework at the comfort of our balcony.

Nice feeling and we celebrated the moment with some Moscato, perfect way of welcoming 2010!! 2009 passes too fast and 2010 will be a better year for all.

In 2009, I picked up Mahjong and I am hooked. The game is engaging and addictive, perfect team building tool that we have been using, sound creepy but somehow, it is true. I have also learnt to play piano, still far from deserving any audience but I will get there. More to come for 2010 and I am looking forward.

Till then....Happy New Year, with lots of love, Cheers!!