Begining of night feed

Confinement aunty left and I have to handle all feeding now and the feeding cycle repeated at a rapid speed. Had my first taste of night feeding and it is really not fun managing the meal time if two babies. I have to make sure that their feeding do not clash and I must have sufficient time to make milk, feed, blup and put baby to sleep before the other wakes up. Oh, not forgetting changing their diaper if they poop. Really busy and after the settling the babies, it is time to express the breast milk. I basically have very little time to sleep n rest, Louis is avoiding feeding them, he is not confidence in handling them but don't think he can run away for too long cos I will be going crazy soon if I have to do this even after i started work.

Babies first month celebration

Yoohooo!! Sincere and Righteous celebrated their first month on 17 april, it marks the end of confinement for me and marks the beginning of new challenge for the 4 of us...me, louis and the two babies. We held the celebration at the function room of my aunty's condo, a cheap and good option, the rental of the room is only $20 for 6 hours. We invited closed friends, colleagues and closed relatives, the crowd were just nice and manageable. The twins were rather well behave, they slept thru the majority part of the celebration under the nosy environment. They should have super nice sleep after the celebration. We received lots of lovely gifts and red packets from everyone. Louis said we should keep all the money for their CDA accounts, so boring!!

babies first outing

We brought the twins out officially today and the experience wasn't too bad but not as easy as I thought. Just half an hour before the departure time, the tiwns decided to cry together because both of them are sleepy but refuse to sleep. I had a hard time trying to calm them down and I have not even change yet. So, I placed them on my bed, change and carry the girl while I do my make up and I have check on the boy to make sure that his pacifier is in his mouth, else he will start screaming. Multi-tasking just to make sure that we get out of the house on time and in one piece.

However, murphy's law is always a challenge, the new stroller failed to work properly and ah boy refuse to sit in the car seat. Ended up, we left the stroller at home, put the girl in the car seat, I carried the boy and off we go. The journey to office was smooth, both of them sleep thru the trip and they behave well while we were at the office too. The trip back was equally peaceful and both of them seriously knock out after we reached home. They must be really tired, especially the boy. Ah girl was tired but refuse to sleep later in the evening, she had enjoyed the attention and the carrying by all the aunties that she constantly wants to be carry now...Happiness!!

Crying babies

Tore between the old and new ways of handling the crying babies. Our mum n confinement lady always accused us of carrying or attending to the babies whenever they cried and said we are simply spoiling them. Where else the baby book will encourage doing so to give babies the security that we are there when they needed us. For me, striking a balance is important, when babies cry, attend to them and understand what happened and attend to their needs. The confinement lady had accused me couple of time that i carried them too much that they seek attention, i told her, i only carried them when they scream and i need to know what happened. And it always ended up that they are uncomfortable n not seeking attention only. The girl was crying so much that she look like she is in pain, then the C-lady said ah girl had wind in hee tummy due to crying thus causes the discomfort. So?? Whatever they said is correct and we as new parents must be wrong.. What the.,,,,

Struggling with negative thought

I feel bad for entertaining the thought of giving up breastfeeding. This is a daily battle, every middle of night is a struggle to wake up althought my eyes still spring open in an auto mode. I need to get rid of that thought, i need to overcome the negativity....now the mind and fresh are both weak, I need to overcome!!!!

Pumping Milk

Pumping milk is my routine task and to increase milk flow, pumping take place every 3 hours, even in the wee hour. Interestingly, I never need to set alarm clock to wake up for the pump, my eyes will spring open when it is time to pump. I give this credit to the nature of motherly love.By the way, breastfeeding is a very difficult and tiring task, it looks so easy but the hard work behind the feed is huge.I apologised if i ever make comments or being judgemental about breastfeeding, i truly repent.

Babies are 2 weeks old

Gladly shared that babies are 2 weeks old, i am enjoying their stage now, infants have their unique charm, need to treasure the moment cos babies grow up so fast.Looking back at the past 14 days, husband support and involvement does play an important role and part to help the weak and post labour mother to settledown and feel at ease and at peace.Without Louis around during the early days when we got home would be unthinkable. It got me thinking about paternal leave and why father should have the right to be involved and help out and they do need the transition period like the mother to realise that their baby had arrived and their roles had evolved.

At the same time, my heart really go out to mothers that their spouse were not at their side when she goes thru child birth and the adjustment thereafter. I knew of a friend's friend that huaband passed on weeks before the arrival of their baby. After going thru labour myself, i knew how tough it is for her and my heart felt the pain for her. I can't imagine how tough it is for her, just know she must be strong for her baby.I will count my blessing and be very grateful for God's grace and having Louis support throughout and going thru this period with me when i needed him most.

Having a stranger in the house

The stranger is the confinement lady not my twins hor. The first few days was fine but like any other stranger, they became less of a stranger after a few days and they began to intude into our life. We need her to take care of the babies and me during this period, thus we try to accomodate but there are moments where I just hope I am left alone.

They being experienced have their own mind set, we do not attempt to change them but having to justify and explained every of our decision is very mental draining. For eg, she question the costing that I paid for my post natal massage, she thinks that I have too many hampers from friends and I should recycle them, she kept asking me to wrap them up and give away. She is disagreed when she found out that my aunty is charging me Market rate for taking care of my babies (this I got to agreed with her) and kept asking me to change my plan, not once for at least 2-3 times.

When friends visited me with gift, she disapproved the stuffs that they bought and suggest that I quickly give away...i am going nuts with all this suggestion. Louis said, one ear in one ear out, I wish I could. I am facing her more than 12 hours a day.

Other than that I think she is over feeding my babies too and she refuse to listen to us. Of cos she had her strength, she encourages breastfeeding and always ask me to try, her cooking is alright thought. Anyway, 5 more days and she will be gone, another confinement lady will come and replace her. This is their arrangement because I got them too late and they are all book before or after my delivery. I think this is good too, at least we will know how to deal with the 2nd aunty when she come to minimised my misery right from the 2nd start.