Saturday, November 16, 2013

Missing Grandma - 2nd anniversary.

This is the 2nd Nov after grandma passed away. Missing her badly and thinking of her makes me wanna cry.

Life without grandma felt lesser love around. Missed talking to her and I missed buying snacks for her. I missed the smile when she see me and missed seeing her enjoying the snacks.

Grandma, I will never forget your love, your kindness, your care, your everything. My greatest regret is not talking to you more, not spending more time with you at your last few months. Not able to grieve during your wake. I love you ah ma.

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Bangkok trip 2013

Haven't have a chance to travel this year and Bangkok trip in sept was my first in 2013. Not the first time to BKK but was extremely excited and looking forwards.

The 4 days 3 nights trip was fulfilling but will be nicer if we have one more day to relax and do something to my hairs and nails. Well, there will always be another trip to BKK soon.

We stayed at Centara Watergrate hotel, very well located within the wholesales centre but quite a walk to the BTS. Anyway, no issue for me, I rather be near to the wholesalea centre than the shopping malls that sell expensive stuffs.

I set a list of items to buy and gladly achieved all my objectives. But as a shopperholic, there are always rooms for more items. I had 3 massages over the 4 days, it was my lifesaver, else my legs would have given way before even reaching Singapore.

Unfortunately, we didn't try any street foods, decided not to take up the challenge to fight the germs and bacteria. Maybe next time.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Up closed and not personal with PM Lee

I am very honored to have the opportunity to get up close with PM Lee on 12th July 2013.

My mission for the night was to request for a personal photograph with him and I did it. I was very excited and nervous but the mission was accomplished.

Mr PM Lee, I am your fan and supporter!! 加由!!
 

Monday, June 24, 2013

Major attack by mosquito at 3am

Woke up by itchy bites from mosquito. Did a count on the bites on my hand and leg, total about 11 bites. Bloody angry and Righteous got bitten too. I am so angry and unable to sleep due to the itchiness. I am wide awake up and trying to kill the mosquito.

Just wait, I am not going to let u ruin my life and attack my loved one..I am going to destory you. I will smash u and take back all the blood that you have taken from us.

Damn it..show urself and stop playing game with me. You will not live to see the next sun rise. I promise! !!

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Nice to see the bright sun

After a long week of hazy Singapore, it is so nice to see the sun and have a clear nice view of the surrounding. The haze cast a negativity throughout Singapore for the past few and it reflected how much we have taken good clear air and weather for granted.

We blame everyone and everywhere for whatever situations that happened instead of thinking and how to offer help to people who are really in trouble. It is nature that people show concern and talk about the haze but what I do not understand is, whatever happened, people tend to bring in politics and blame our leadera for the situation. It is not our ministers fault that the the wind direction changes and the haze blow towards us. It is not our ministers fault that Indonesia is huge and many needs to be done before putting out the fire.

I am living in Singapore and do face the same polluted air situation, I do have a pair of young childrens that I am worried about their health and my mum and older relatives to think of. There are positive side that come out of the situation, I get sms from friends asking if I need masks. We have additional topic to talk about at work and show the human and funny side of people. We realise the joy of sharing and kindness in people when we need to source for masks. This haze shall pass and I am more concern of how to get rid of those irritating mosquitos.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Places for weekend breakfast

We enjoyed bringing the twins out for breakfast on weekend. We will look for places that are not crowded and so far we have started a list of locations that breakfast is decent, price is right and condusive for the twins.

Location 1:
Cafe at Studio M hotel along Mohd sultan road. It is near to my office and free parking for us over the weekend. The set breakfast si $12.90 each.

Location 2:
Hans cafe at CDB, very spacious with wide variety of foods option.

Location 3:
McDonalds along bt timah road, a rare outlet that is not crowded.

Location 4:
Dome at SAM. Nice arty location to spend our weekend. Price is good and food is nice.

Location 5:
Cedele at Greenridge. Healthy food with limited crowd.

More locations to be added.

Monday, May 13, 2013

Rough patches in life

I am very angry with my Louis, never feel so frustrated in my life. I hate that my emotion revolved around him sometime. I hate that I am affected by him. I hate losing the cool and I hate being so emotional. I want to move away from that and I want to be myself and Love myself. Current stage of me...I hate everything around me. I hate that I have work doubly hard, I hate that I hate my MIL, I hate that I have to make decision that revolved around twins. I hate that I have to be dependence on others. I am feeling tired and alone...I hate everything. I hate that I have to tell myself to be positive. I hate that I have to encourage others, I hate that I have to manage other people expectation.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Gadgets junkies

I had self confessed that I am a gadgets junkie, not the extreme types but I think bad enough. I have 3 digital cameras, 2 ipad, 1 galaxy tab 2, 2 iPod and a new window 8 laptop. Do I really need so many of them?? Maybe not but owning them makes me happy. I am happier when my iPad 2 is free, iPad 1 is cheap, got it at only $75, a recon set.

I got my latest canon pocket camera from Gmarket at $200 lower than the retail price here in singapore, happiness right? I will have not excuses not to capture moments with my twins with so many of my camera on hands.

Friday, March 29, 2013

Decision making time

We have been thinking about moving nearer to Jurong area now that the twins are two and should be attending school soon. We tried not to push the matter but the topic resurfaced and we really need to discuss the issue seriously.

I have been enjoying the freedom of weekdays nights and although I loved my lifestyle and freedom,  I really need to reconsider the current arrangement and try to spend more time with the kids. Moving out of our comfort zone is tough but we have to be fair to our twins.

The great things is I do have family support from my mum and aunt who are willing to make changes to their own arrangement to accommodate our changes. Our decision will cause one round of effect and we will think thru carefully before action. Key point is to put the kids welfare above all.

One of the positive point of moving to Jurong mean I will have more time to enjoy my music in the car..not too bad!!

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Mission from 25 feb to 8 march!!

Yes, I was on leave to take care of the twins and we set a mission for ourselves so that we have a goal to work towards to. We aim to visit as many new cafes and new places as possible.

We started with staycation at Festive hotel, first time for all of us. We visited The Costa Settlement at Changi village, nice cafe and the beef pizza was really superb.

We went to Antoinette at Praha Road, the cafe was located new Lavender MRT, the location was very unassuming. The cafe was very classy and the twins did manage to mess up the place a little.

We also visited Penny University along East Coast Road, the cafe is totally not child friendly, very nosy and it does not help that the twins are currently into their screaming mode. And once again, we felt discriminated,  the youngsters gave us dirty look and even move away from us.

We will contiune our new cafe mission and should be visiting a few more before the twins holiday ended. We are going to Chye Seng Huat tomorrow. 

Remembering my grandma

The twins were a little under the weather and their appetites weren't very good. We reduced their milk quantity and cut out oily foods. But I do cook plain porridge for them.

This is my grandma ways of nursing me when I am unwell. She will always cook plain porridge for me and only added some soya sauce for me to go with it. This is the comfort that she gave me since young and I am offering it back to my twins. They love the plain porridge for a change and the salty soya sauce taste help to ease their plain taste bud.

I love the ways I am remembering my grandma..I love the ways that she is still in my life even though she is not here with us anymore.  Ah ma...我会永远把你放在我心里。

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Pushing my limit

My limiit is challenged and my patience tested after spending more than 10 days with my two little darlings. They constantly come up with new tricks, new requests, new demands that we were unable to counter. I blame it our non creative minds to manage them and seriously lack of experienced and wisdom.

I am trying to stop myself from shouting at them but daily I will be driven up the wall. I will pull my hairs and get really angry with myself. Of cos all this will renew and refresh daily after the little ones woke up and gave me the sweetest hugs and kisses.

With this given chance to spend such long time with them, I have concluded and confirmed that I am not cut out to be a stay home mum. I rather work, faces and handle office bitches and politics than kill myself.

Having said all this, I must said....I will always love u...my darlings! !

Saturday, March 2, 2013

After one week of staying home with the twins

The past 7 days were nothing but challenging. The twins are at the terrible two stage where they have their little mind of their own and demanding but yet they can't fully express themselves, can't fully understand instructions and explanations. They express themselves thru umpteen crying sessions which was really irritating. 

I needs alot of wisdom, love,  patience and perseverance to handle my babies. I do not want to scream at them all the time. I do not want to punish them all the time but how to get thru their little mind?? Giving in all the time will spoil them and I definitely do not want this to happen. Dear lord, please show me the ways to manage my two little darlings.

Monday, February 25, 2013

First day of staycation

To me, today was an eventful day. We checked in the hotel, brought the twins to their first swimming experience, had dinner, rested and went for a short evening walk.

We were tired but still happy. The twins weren't at their best behaviour but were doing good considering this is their first hotel stay.

Dear Lord, thank you for watching over us. Amen Lord.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

The beginning of two weeks as a stay home mom.

My nanny home is undergoing upgrading by HDB for 2 weeks, so I am on two weeks leave to take care of the twins. After the 1 week holiday taken by my nanny last year, this the longest period that I will be spending with the twins.  The blessing is, Louis will be around to help out and we have planned staycation and activites to entertain the kids and allow us to stay sane.

We have packed for the staycation and are pretty excited about the holiday.  Staycation will be the pre preparation for the oversea trip.  Hopefully, we will be able to bring them overseas to Perth or Hong Kong, else going to Bintan is also not a bad ideas.

Righteous has not been able to sleep well the last two nights, crossing fingers for the rest of the weeks. Dear Lord, please watch over us and show us mercy. Amen Lord.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

What a CNY for 2013

We had a terrible CNY 2013. The twins started having fever on new year eve and instead of getting better, the fever spike and they seem to be fighting a horrible viral fever.

This was confirmed during our visit to KKH on 2nd day of cny. The blood test was clear but I am worried about urinary infection for ah girl, so we went back again on 3rd day. Was totally glad and grateful that the test was negative and she is clear. So, now we have to continue to fight the viral till their immunity is stronger and win the battle. Till now, it will be lots of medicine for them to bring the temperature down to make them feel better.

I felt jealous and depressed from reading and looking at all the happy pictures about cny. Everyone are having rolling good time while we were left fighting the nasty fever. But I am and will be forever grateful for having the twins and do what I need to do to get them well. We will be celebrating the rest of the future festives with a happy heart and super rolling great time. Amen Lord.

Persistent high fever is not leaving the kids alone.

It has been day 3 and the fever remain high at 39 plus degree once the medicine wore off. Although this is not the first time that they were down with viral fever but it is always worrying each time the fever strike so high. Had their blood tested this morning, all good.   The urine test was unsuccessful, failed to capture the urine, now I am remain worried that it could be urinary infection which is common for young children.

There were many articles providing information about fever among young children and stating that fever do not cause brain damage. However, all it need is one article on a case of brain damaged incident causes by High fever to drive any parents nuts. No amount of assuranced and reasoning, logic or facts will help. Any form of risk or threat that could compromise the health of our children is too risky.

Dear Lord, please heal them and remove the viral fever. Please watch over them and give them strength. I am weak and fearful, please give me courage and wisdom on managing and taking care of them. I have no one else but you in timr of need, please forgive me..Dear Lord, please take care of them. Thank you, lord. Amen.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Nursing two unwell babies over cny.

Chinese new year eve started terrible with the twins both felt sick with high fever. The fever was persistence and they were feeling unwell. They were pretty restless during visiting on first day of cny. Now Righteous is resting next to me with fever as high as 38.5 degree and the medicine does seem to work on her. She will need to break the fever to get well. I am very worry and will bring her to kkh if the fever do not drop by tomorrow morning.

It makes me wonder about my decision in insisiting on bringing them for visitng even though they were unwell. Louis wanted to stay home and let them rest but first day of cny is such important day that I want them to value the significant of cny. Then again, they might be too young to understand and it is probably me who wanted to celebrate the festive.

Dear babies, please get well soon..mama love u and looking back, we should maybe really stay home and allow both of you to rest.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

A very special friend

I would like to congratulate Vanessa on the arrival of her twins on 11 January 2013. To my dearest friend who had gone thru too many things in our life. We started our journey in secondary school but the closeness set in after we graduated. We were business partners, travel mates, we party together, drink together, we went for classes together, we shared intimate secret, we were each other wedding coordinator, we have gone thru alot together and now we are both proud parents of our twins.

Life would never be the same without her. Now, we look forward to bringing our twins up together, explore parenthoods together and the next phase of our life together.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Unable to sleep

Feeling very very very tired but I can't get to sleep. Weekend was already challenging enough and yet when I can rest on weekdays, I have problem sleeping. I didn't sleep on Monday night and now I am feeling the same frustration on Tuesday. I am very tired but I just can't get to sleep.

Lack of sleep drive me up the wall, I am problem focusing at work and feel short temper. Why is this happening? I cut down on coffee and turn to decaf coffee and the condition didn't improve.

Help!! I need help.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Did a mental counts

My twins fell sick so often that I did a mental counts. On average, they are sick at least once a month since they turn 5 months old. Now, they are 21 months, which mean I have at least 16 scary weekends and numerous visits to the hospital.

Since the beginning of 2013, they were down with high fever, got better and now down with flu n cough. In 2013, forget about my other resolutions....all I want is two healthy and happy babies.

Dear lord, please protect and watch over them. I am totally at lost when they are unwell.