Grandaunt

In my memory, my grandaunt, my grandfather youngest sister, has always been a very doting mum. She is the type of mother that show the meaning of unconditional love to her children, maybe to the point of spoiling them but her children all turn out well under her loving care.

When we were young, I always envied how my uncles (who happened to be 2-4 years younger than me) were pampered by my grandaunt, she is always gentle and always there when her children needed her while my mum is the mum that believed in self care and self-service.

15 years ago, she was diagnosed with Cancer but she fight the tought fight and she survived. She lived her life with gratefulness and with more love and care. She married her only daughter off and looked forward to be a grandmother. Unfortunately, the devil came back and hit her bad, her fragil body is bearly twenty over kg. I was sad looking at how weak she look, it must be really painful for her and I wish her well. Not expecting miracle to happen but hope that we will see her more before everything is too late.

Looking back at 2009

2009 passes too fast and stocks taking before welcoming 2010.

Visited Melbourne with Louis, my best trip in 2009. I finally get to drive in Melbourne and amazingly I remembered the route in Melbourne, I managed to get around without referring to the Melway much. Had a good catch up with niece, missed and hope to see her in (S) soon.

Grandma health deteriorated alot and she was hospitalised couple of times, (in fact, she just got admittted again 2 days ago and visiting her later). I had a terrible scared when Grandma had kidney infection, during that period, my tears will roll the moment I visit my grandma and it hurt to see her suffer.

PBB decided to start a small business and we went to GZ together, it was tiring but fun. It was confirmed and sealed that PBB is simply bimbo, we need to give her an award for the number of wrong turn she made while leaving the hotel room.

When I asked Van for a light drink one night to celebrate her birthday, we ended up drinking 3 bottles of champagne and re-discover the joy of drinking. We had great fun and still having fun. Christmas drinking is waiting for us. We also experienced the luxurious and pampering Banyan Tree, we went to 2 Banyan Tree so far and will want to try alot more, but before that got to earn the money first. The supper short trip to Hong Kong to visit Mr Vain was fast and furious. If we are going to HK again, make it a longer and less tiring trip, ok?

I have completed 10km and 21km respectively, timing was disappointing but I truly enjoy the process, I want to run another 21km next year.

This year, we welcome the arrival of baby Gavin and baby Travis, still no Sincerity though. We have moved from TB to Keng Lee and still trying to get used to the new place. Like every other years, we gained some and we lost some, as long as we are gaining more than what we lost, we should be consider doing well right? Wanting to live life to the fullest is still top of the list.

Christmas is coming

My favorite time of the year is less than a month away. First Christmas at The Merlot and I am quit excited about it. I will be cooking for Christmas and it is like using the small kitchen for the first time too. It will be challenging trying to multi-tasks in the space limiting kitchen but I think all should be well.

Party dates are set, get ready the presents and eating my Christmas dinner...hahahha..

By the way, I am warming the kitchen, cooking pasta this Tuesday, Louis drag the ideas when I told him I will be cooking (he is on course and on office hours, that means he can have home cooked dinner for the entired week, so bless. isn't?)

Free Upgrade at Banyan Tree....not Pong Pong Tree

We went for our annual Bintan trip and great thing happened. The ferry journey was better than expected, no sea sick till 5 min before reaching and I immediate felt better after throwing out. It rain while we were travelling and the rain stop the moment we arrival.

As we travel via Emerald Class, we were invited to wait at the lounge while we waited for our passport to be cleared at the custom, no Q-ing. After checking out, we went to the Banyan Tree counter, took some photos while we wait for the private Jeep to pick and send us straight to the BANYAN TREE. (By the way, the private Jeep service cost us US$12.50 one way..expensive ya but what to do)

The good news arrived while we are waiting for our room to be ready. We had booked for the Bayview Villa that cost us US$360 for a night but were given FREE upgrade to Sanctuary Pool Villa that cost US$675/night. Sanctuary Pool Villa was more than double the size of our original Villa and we got a private pool to ourselves and we had two bed rooms. It was pure indulgence and luxury, who needs to leave the villa when we had everything, right? Nothing beat Free Upgrade and this must be the best deal that happened to me so Far!!

Service at Banyan Tree was top class and they were responsive and reactive to our needs. Foods served was delicious and the view and serene environment was calming. Warning, all this came with a very steep price tag.

Nevertheless, go ahead and pamper yourself once in awhile, try Banyan Tree and you will be addicted...Trust me!!!

Grandma birthday celebration

is more of a family get-together. Due to grandma condition, we decided to cater buffet instead of eating out. As usual, grandma threw a little tantrum when she found about the celebration but was later convinced that a little gathering is good. She didn't want any birthday cake and we went along with her wish. Then again, birthday celebration without birthday cake was quite an anti-climate, lesson learnt.

As usual, I was assigned to organised the dinner, I went for Manna Pot (caterer) with strong recommendation by my colleague, but the foods was quite disappointing, too salty. However, as noticed by my cousin, the two boys who delivered the foods were quite good looking, that's the whole point right, foods so-so and they sent good looking boys to distract us...perfect move.

Highlight of the night is of cause my granny and my little (not so little after all) niece and nephew.

[Grandma not ready for camera]


[Grandma still not ready for camera]


[Grandma is finally ready..vain]


[Almost complete family photo...you know who you are..]

2 weeks before the race

I am 2 weeks away from the SCB marathon, things are not looking too bad. Bought my new shoes, had my first run with the shoes today. No blister but my toes still cramp up. I was having a breezing first 3-4km run and when i hit 6km (i think) the toes started to cramp up. I was breathing in and out harder to forget the pain but I have to stop when it got worst.

Why is this happening to me? I am beginning to feel worried about the run.....

Home cooked dinner

One of my dear friend think that my blog is getting too boring and suggested that I try something new. He asked me to buy a cook book and cook all the dishes in the book. Objective is really to learn and understand the process of cooking, and the feeling while cooking each dishes. After I master the dishes, I can invite friends over for dinner and taste the foods. Not a bad idea, but I am not really into cooking now, so will save this good suggestion for later stage.

Anyway, although I might not be cooking new dishes anytime soon, I have cooked my favourite Japanese curry for dinner. Yummy.

Hen's night..

Was looking at some of the photo albums in Facebook about Hen's night and it all looks like it is the LAST party of the bride. During the Hen's nite party, the bride-to-be is usually challenge to do some daring tasks that they are usually shy or not so stylo for a lady to do. Asking the best looking guy in the house to buy her a drink, what's the point when she is getting married soon right?? Other than the bride, the sisters are more daring during the party too, is it becos everybody have the licence to approach anyone??

So, the point is, why do we have such a party for a person who is about the get married? Shouldn't we have such party for our friends who are single and available instead, it should be fun right?

Big boobs, shall we hold a party for you like this? Rachel might kill us but we can hold one for her too, how about that? Good idea??

How to complete 21km?

The date to SCB Marathon 2009 is drawing near and I am not ready for my run. We have been training regularly but we are quite behind schedule. We are about 5 weeks away from the race and I am covering only 12km which almost kill me, how to complete the next 9km?

I am quite a blister queen, I have developed blisters at different part of my body weekly while I run. I had a blister on my shoulder cause by my sport bra and I have different blisters forming on my feet. The very wise conclusion from my colleagues and friends is, my shoes is Either too Tight or too Loose..(As good as no Conclusion!!!)

New toys at home

I got my nespresso, love the new coffee machine. I got my piano too.

And visitors to my new place...Travis and Ashleigh

Lift broke down

Less than 2 weeks at the new home, the not to be trusted lift broke down 3 times. Should I be glad that I am only staying at the 6th floor?

I walked up 10 storey to swim on Sat, what a good warmed up exercise. I enjoyed the privacy of having the pool to myself so far, hopefully this is last for a long time.

Hippcup that is NICE

My car battery went flat this morning when I was at my mum's place. Abit frustrated since it spoiled my plan of unpacking my new place. It turned out to be something nice, in my prospective. Since I can't go anywhere, I spent the time at my grandma place, talking to her and my cousins, we had good fun.

We planned and paced too many stuffs too closely and we forgot how to slow down and spend quality with people that we love. The flat battery gave me the opportunity to do so without me asking and I totally appreciate it.

New home...finally

After 5 weeks of renovation, our new home is finally ready. Mover came with 48 boxes of our stuffs, 8 tables (all sizes), 2 high stools, 1 sofa bed, 1 king size mattress, 2 fans, 1 Xmas tree, 1 reindeer, and many others stuffs that I almost forgot that I owned them.

Unpacking was not as tough as I expected, we managed to unpack almost 40 boxes within 6 hours and all boxes are cleared on day 2. Dinning table will be in tomorrow and sofa 5 weeks later (customisation take 6 weeks).

Tonight is the first night at the new home, still trying to get used to the new environment and the small space. I love the bay window and my new piano. Balcony will be cool once nearly done, I hope. Still alot of stuffs undone, hopefully house warming will not be in DEC as predicted by Big boobs. I so looking forward to Christmas.

Getting old....gracefully

Can't fight the harsh truth that I am no longer in my 20s and my body is definitely not trying to deny the truth. Have been drinking and staying out late on almost every Friday for the past two months and the recovery time seem to get longer week after week.

We did have a bit too much to drink last night and Saturday morning is just hell for me. Head was spinning and pounding pain. Althought it did get better after lot of water but I have the floating feeling the entired day. What is this? Shouldn't I get stronger after weeks of practice and not weaker? Will have to say no to Mr Bombay for awhile and turn back to Mr Wine. Haha, not intending to say Goodbye to Mr Alcohol yet.

Celebrated Louis 33rd Birthday on Saturday too, we had Buffet lunch at The Melt, spread was good. There were 3 birthday boys within the same resturant, cool.

I am not only drinking, I am also training for my Race and learning new things, trying to live a balance and fulfiling life. Sound crapy but that's what I am doing right now.

Can't believed I cried

For the first time in 8 years, I drag going to work. I hate the tiring emotional war game and never ending ego hunger. I am tired and disappointed and I cried in office when no one was around. My tear can't stop and I do not understand why.

Thank God for the BKK trip, I needed the getaway so badly and Bitch, thanks for accompanying for the day and the drinking session.

Song list..

Have you decided on your song:

Queen Mother : Jin Tian Bu Hui Jia
Big Boobs: ?
CBB: ?

Everything else failed, we have 'Love me Tender'...haha

Malacca to Bangkok

Smooth trip to Malacca, drove up for the good foods and some shopping. I bought 6 pairs of shoes, damn alot but they are simply my type, can't resist the calling. We were expecting a relaxing trip, ended up rather exhausted, probably because of the driving but I had good fun.

Getting ready for the coming Bangkok trip. Yes, I am going to Bangkok again, this is my FIRST trip to BKK this year. I will be arriving on Friday morning and I have planned out my iternary. I am going to colour my hair and do some shopping and cafe-ing on my own before the rest arrived in the late night. It should be cool considering this is the first time that I will be alone in BKK (for less than 12 hours la).

This week is another tiring week, I need to find time to go to driving range.

Oops!! I did it again and again and again...

My classic bimbo moment again. As I was driving today, I noticed that my petrol tank is only half full and I just did my pump yesterday. What happened? Is there a leak? I got worried and concerned, I called Louis and ask him to check out the car tomorrow since he will be driving it while I am off to Malacca in our Honda Jazz.

Louis was very concerned too and he wanted to go the workshop first thing in the morning then SUDDENLY, I realised I only filled the tank up to $45 to enjoy the current promotion and that explained the half tank.

I know I am quite hopeless, if Louis die of heart failure one day, I might be the main cause of it.

1st Piano lesson

Yes, I did it! My piano teacher survived me and he is a 26 years old NTU engineering drop out student who decided that engineering is too boring and music is his dream person. He is Paul Ho and he must have pray for 'Patience, Love and kindness' cause he got me as his student on every Wednesday night, how sweet, hahaha

He got a little sense of humor, think he needs a lot more to handle me. He taught me 'Love me tender' today, not sure who needs it more man. The lesson continue....

Innocence or Guilty?

What kind of person are you in general sense:

Are you more of 'Innoncence until proven guilty person or Guilty until proven innocence person? What's the difference? Mainly thats referred to how you judge a person right from the start without any prior information or experience.

For me, I am the 'Innocence until proven guilty' person. I am trusting and in my little perfect world, everyone is nice and kind till they pissed me off or deserved the judgement from me, which can happen in second. Haha, meaning to say, YOU WILL BE JUDGE BY ME, althought I try not to but that's tough!! My brother and Louis are both the other type and they think I am too trusting for my own good, what to do, I am such a nice soul.

Don't give me the 'want to puke' look, I can see that!!

Mummy's Love

Mummy is amazing, she kept my room in tip top condition and I feel that I have never move out of my room for the past 3 years. When I told her that I am moving back to stay with her for a few weeks, she clean out my room and she bought me new pillow. She must be looking forward to my return and have someone to chat with.

Just a little gulity that my schedule are packed and I hardly have time at home. My piano class is starting this Wednesday and I am really looking forward to it, it is like a childhood dream came true.

I have joggin training on Tuesday and Thursday is my golf lesson and I have trip planned out for this and next weekend. OMG!!

Final moments

Yes, packing almost done, there are still nitty gritty stuffs laying around that we can't decide where to place them, to throw, to pack or to donate? Tough.

There were 3 bottles of wines and 6 can of beers in the fridge and we did comtemplate whether to drink them all tonight. Lucily we were sensible, we wash down the bottle of moscato and give away the rest.

I thought I will 'travel light' these few weeks to my mum place but I think I am pretty wrong. I have 3 full suitcases of clothes, 1 box of bags, 1 box of toilettries, 1 bag full of eye lashes and 10 pairs of shoes, and alot more, what the F***?

Bitch..happy 32nd Birthday!!

Same time last year, we celebrated your birthday at Vanessa place, how time flies. Hope you had a great time earlier.

Love you, my dearest BITCH.

PBB

Attachment...

We have done 50-60% of packing, our place is in a big mess. As I packed, I felt a little sad that we are leaving the place that we have called home for the past 3 years. This is our last weekend at this place, gonna go for breakfast tomorrow morning and come back home and contiune packing.

By the way, the legenary Fish is gone.

I will probably cry on Thursday night when we finally hand the keys over to the new owner.

Catching up with friends

I have been busy doing a fair bit of catching up with friends these few weeks and it never feel so right and good before. I am referring to friends that I have not met for at least 5-10 years, before the meeting, I do have the usual worries of awkward silence, running out of topic to talk or 'what if' thought, but it all turn out great.

Had dinner with the girls at Fire Station at Bt Timah, the place is perfect for dinner and chilling out, it was so fun.

Remember that I have a bucket list and one of the item is to learn Piano and end objective is to play at my friends funeral if they leave before me (touched, please do!!). Saw the piano at the bar, can't help but want to pose for photo. Send me the song that you want to be play at you know when.

'Amazing Grace' is good for comforting families and friends, lifestyle song is what I am looking for. Big boobs, what is your song again?? 'Let talk about Sex'? Haha


Professional poser.

Xiao Wen, you will pay for this...the day will come.

Southpark me

Cute hor...

4 meetings in a row

Having 4 meetings non stop was indeed not a fun thing to do. Mentally drained and physically tired. No amount of coffee seem to work.

Had a great Fall!!!

I am clumsy and there is no need to deny the fact. I have fallen flat on my face 4 times so far and the recent one is probably the worst. We were playing Paintball and I was too engross, kan cheong, clumsy, whatever you called it,I ran and I fell. Got a deep cut on my lips, hit my teeth on the hard ground, scratches on my right cheek, deep abrasion on my elbow and feet, and a huge gross blue-black on my left knee.

When I saw the blood flowing from my mouth, my first thought was, I need a mirror, I need to see what's the damage, how bad is the cut? Then the next thing, I blacked out, rested for awhile before I was sent to the First Aid room. Can you believed it, there is no mirror in the ROOM. So i have to walk to the toilet to check out the wound on my face..hahaha

Even the doctor asked how I fell? Had a day MC to rest at home. My wound are healing quite fast, only thing is, I can't take solid food, not even bread. The fall impact had caused my teeth to shift and they are out of alignment now, it will take a while for the teeth to shift back. Meanwhile, I will be liquid diet. I am constantly hungry.


My injuries from one game of Paintball..

Start packing

No more escape and no more lazing around. The date are drawing closed and the cartons are in, 50 of them. We have to start packing.

We have to move out by 14 August, that's about 2 weeks plus from now and our place still look untouched. As expected, there are some hipcups for the new place and renovation will likely be completed by end August, so I will be moving back to Jurong and Louis to Seng Kang..Hahaha

Will upload the design of the new place tonight.

This is the view from our new Master Room

Bucket list

Bucket list - A list of things to do before you die. Comes from the term "kicked the bucket". Do you have yours ready?

I have done up mine and till date there are 9 items on my list. If I mananged to achieve the item earlier, will strike it off and add new item to the list.

Now working on my list....

New home

We are moving!! Deal is sealed and we had our first appointment with HDB. The second appointment is on 14th August and it means that we have to vacant our place by the date. Our new place take over date is 26th August, so we might have to stay with my mum for 2 weeks.

The renovation pain will have to start soon and we have not start looking yet. I can feel the pain of renovation even before we start. Oh no, to make matter worst, we have to pack the whole house, I am not looking forward to that.

The theme for the new place will be Lounge. How will it turn out, not sure but should be cool.

Changes..

My life has change, it will never be the same again. I don't want it to be the same either, looking forward to an enriched and fulfilling future.

Live life to the fullest

People around me have been telling me or showing me to live life to the fullest. But seriously, what's that? What's does it take or what it mean to live life to the fullest? I do not have a clue, does living life without a regret count, and how is that possible?

I have been asked more than once if I have any regret so far, yes I do and instead looking at the closed door, I look forward. Moving on, will I have more regret? I hope not but I am not asking for any guarantee but like what everyone is saying, live life to the fullest. By the way, buying that Gucci bag does not count.

I must say, I want to thank God for my family, they gave me warmth, although not harmony all the time but we have fun and we are good. I am blessed that I have friends that I can hang out with, friends that I can chio for drinking, friends that can talk nonsense with me and friends that travel with me and play MJ with me. And a husband that constantly irritate the shit out of me. What more can I ask?

What’s your aspiration?

When I was young, I wanted to be policewoman, guess there is always a part of me that wanted to uphold justice but that faded away pretty fast. Then, when I was slightly older, I want to be a musician, but I missed the enrollment into the music class and that dream die prematurely. Then, came secondary school education and I lost the ambitious to be anything. Instead I am inspired to try job that will not be my full time career in the future. I want to try waitress, factory worker, promoter, receptionist and etc and I must say, I did and I never regret the decision to so.

I was working in Pizza Hut call center, taking order and made numerous mistakes, thanks goodness for the kind supervisor for saving my skin. I was motor show promoter twice and the experience was memorable, working with a bunch of highly competitive girls was great fun, at least no bitching was involved. There are a lot more and all these experiences were seriously priceless, no amount of educations can replace.

So, young people, go on and try different jobs, you will only live and be young once, don’t waste your youth.

Bimbo moment again...

Sometime, I find myself amazing too and I do not know if I should cry or laugh at myself for my damn bimbo moment.

One morning, I can't find my car in the car park, I was panic, I searched again and I looked around, still no sight of my car. I was convinced that my car was stolen, I called Louis and and my eyes starts to tear, I think I should call the police. Then, Louis told me I actually park the car at level 2 instead of level 4 that I have searching. *blush*

I have more of them, if you want to know, asked me..hahahha

Grandma condition is more critical than we thought

Grandma is in critical condition. She has lung infection, her asthma is making her breahtless and her irregular heart beat might cause her heart to collape. Her condition really deteriorated too fast.

Doctor said that we might not know but her condition is really bad. She gathered the family members today to discuss about Grandma condition and possible follow up should her condition worsen. Doctor explained that she might lost her ability to breath due to her lung infection and in the event that all medication failed to work, what do we want the doctor to do?

To insert a tube in her to aid her breathing which can only be done in ICU, because if that happened, she is definitely in critical condition. With this, there might be a possibility of her recovering from her Lung infection, however due to her old age and weak body, she might need other treatment should she recover. Another option is comfort management which mean, ready to let her go and end her suffering.

Doctor felt that we should give grandma a chance to try, they will call in the ICU doctor if the need arises before we make the final decision. All along, I thought I will be strong and ready to face this day as long as I love her and am spending enough time with grandma, but today when I saw her, I felt that time is running out and I am not quite ready to see her in this state.

I am the official contact point for grandma condition. Hopefully I will know what to do if the Doctor ever call me.

Edamame

My new fav food, Edamame, tried various brand and these two types are the best. Can only find them at Medi-ya supermarket at Liang court.

I am tired

Enough said, i will say no more and do what I need and want to do.

Instant Hand sanitizer

My little part of Kiasu-ness, this is the amount of Instant Hand Sanitizer that i have bought.

Over promised and under delivered.

Had our Mothers' Day dinner at one of the Coffee Shop at Jurong East. I wasn't supportive of going to this coffee shop but gave in after I was told that the price is really cheap and good. We had dinner there once some months back and was told that my aunt who bought us the dinner only paid $200 plus for 2 tables of 10 people each.

I made it a point to find out the cost for 3 tables and was told that is should only be around $300 plus. That's good deal isn't it? But when asked for the bill, the told cost was $600. I was very unhappy, how can this goes so wrong? $600 is double of what was told to me. Anyway, I will try not to get involved in such planning anymore, only make me upset each time with all the unnecessary comments and hipcup.

Grandma couldn't join us for the dinner, she was in hospital. Her asthma condition was under control but her mind is in delirious state. She lost track of time and event, she was telling me thing that either happened in the past or never happen. May sounds hilarious sometime when we recount the incidents, but grandma condition is definitely not funny.

Grandma asthma attack

Was suppose to have a game of golf at Palm Resort when my aunt called me telling me that Grandma wasn't feeling very well. She has been having breathing difficulity for the past few days, was at her place on labour day and I heard grandma complaining. Her condition worsen and needed medical attention.

Sent her to the clinic and Doctor said she will need to be hospitalised if her condition do not improve 3 hours after taking her medicine. We fed her, put her to bed and observe her and 4 hours later, we decided that she needs to go to the Hospital. Call for the ambulance service cause she got weaken and was unable to walk herself down the stair. I think she will be fine but grandma will not be able to join us for the Mothers' Day dinner tomorrow and should we still even have the dinner???

Cheating habit

Not sure who is more unlucky, a married friend whom I bump into who was hugged by another woman or me who saw the action head on???

My first reaction when I saw him was, 'hey' but before I could complete my sentence, I was shocked by the woman hugging him from behind, who was not his wife. His first reaction was walk quickly up the escalator, what does that mean? He is gulity? There was no moment of doubt in me about what I saw and obviosuly I was distrub and felt extremely disgusted, his wife just gave birth to a baby boy and here he is out cheating?

What happened to the marriage vow, is there still trust in marriage these days?

Serious during meeting

We were very serious when attending our company meeting...really.

Serious taking photo when CEO went out of the room to answer his call.

Food poisoning

Nope, this time it wasn't me. It was Louis who is down with the virus, we suspected that the Salmon Sashimi he had last night wasn't fresh.

Poor thing..

Heart Mur mur

Life cannot be more drama , was told by my friend (financial planner) that my recent medical show that I have heart mur mur and Heart Valve protection has been excluded from the new policy that i just took up.

Heart murmurs are abnormal sounds made by turbulent blood in or near your heart during your heartbeat, so my friend asked if the doctor was extreme good looking that causing my heart to beat at an abnormal speed? Joking, i remember the doctor was not too tall and not too good looking.

Based on the information that I read from Internet, Heart Mur mur is quite common and usual innocent and might be a one of condition or it might dissapear over time, but still it could be a sign of something more critical. Not giving any chances, I am going for a detailed Cardio check up just to be sure.

Do not agitate me, I might really have Heart attack.

Why?

I have more than 16 years experience of carrying babies of all age and sizes and my brother doubt my ability to handle his 4 months old son. Is this an insult or an act of an overly protective father? I told him, don't let it be a burden to care for your children. Since the birth of my niece, the best and only way of taking of his kid is over-protection. Frankly speaking, it is very tiring to be at his place. We have to be at our 'best' behaviour and restricted movement. At some point, I felt very unwelcome and disappointed.

Why is my brother behaving this way? He can't trust us, who is suppose to be his closest kin other than his wife and kids? I don't have to make the effort to get my mum to visit them, but if I don't do it, who will? Asking my brother to visit my grandma with his family is like the toughest thing and he always have ton of excuses. He is busy, tell me who is not???

My brother mini me

Visited my two littles cute niece and nephew, have not see them since January and they do grow fast.

My nephew look exactly like my brother when he was little, amazing.

Wen yu is already a big girl and she is now friendlier to me, so nice.

New kitchen toys

I am sucker for electrical gadgets and kitchen appliances, i have two new additional to my kitchen, they are amazing.


ta ta...here you are...:

Aren't they cute? The pop corn taste so good hahah.

Give thanks

There are many things that happened around me but I have nothing to share except to tell all my beloved, give thanks each day for able to wake up and feel the sun and appreciate all we have. Count our blessing and not our lost. Focus on the the good and not the bad. I know all these are easier said then done but I hope we don't have to learn only thru hard lessons. When we are put thru the test and trial, we know it all happened for a reason and we are special to be the chosen one and the messager to all around us.

Love you all.

Start of the new Journey

We have started our first step for IVF, a consent from the doctor to proceed with the procedure, if you are not awared, you have to be legally married to opt for IVF in Singapore.

Due to the co-funding by the government, IVF is popular right now at the public hospital, our first scheduled appointment is in May (earliest). I am not sure if I am ready for the blood test and the endless self-injection but since this the decision that we have made, I will not look back.

Lost of voice

I asked Louis, 'do you think the throat infection is caused by the drinking at Mambo?' He replied 'Yes' without thinking. Am I really too old and frail to party? One girl's night out and I am ill for more than 7 days? I started feeling unwell on Thursday and totally lost my voice on Sunday before I decided that the condition is too bad to self-medicate. The throat inflammation casues fever and Panadol can't seem to work.

Due to blocked nose and high body temperature, I can't sleep at night. At one point, I almost wanted to get up and write '25 random things about myself' but was too lazy to move.

If you asked me if I will party like no tomorrow again, I will if ONLY for a very strong and good reason. Like Bitchy Tiong and Big Boobs Hen's night (I think the rest of my girlfriends are all married), and of cause like all cicumtances, there will be exception but the execption better be damn GOOD.

By the way, Mambo is not the as same as before. The songs are not as nice, people not as happening and good looking, drinks are more deadly. What's stays the same is the layout of the disco, the crowd outside Zouk and the ever so unfriendly but efficient bouncers.

Mambo night and Retro Party

Just came back from a Retro Theme function and I have the itch for a crazy Mambo night out. Wanted to enjoy the Mambo party before my biological clock stop me from doing so. I must admit, party all night has become quite a thing of the past for me. Can barely survived after a long night out and it takes me extra long days to recover from the drinking and the lack of sleep. But then, I will only be older by the day, must as well enjoy the party while I still can right? Of cause, there will be other changes that stop me from partying, so before all that happen, Mambo party is confirmed on next Wednesday night (I am taking leave the next day to recuperate). Let's party!!

Amela, be ready to drink, Vanessa is thirsty.

Alternatives

Althought we have made the decision but we are open to alternatives. Will probably seek 2nd opinion or try out TCM. No harming trying right???

Have you heard of this TCM Clinic at Jurong East that are famous for their fertiliy treatment?? Yes, this is the one that my mum recommended and I said I don't need her advice...:P Will make an appointment and see how it go. Anyway, we know that we can start the procedure anytime when we want it..

Decision made!!

Had a discussion with our Doctor today and we have come to a conclusion. Went thru the consulting session with the Head nurse to understand the whole procedure and what to expect. What shock us most other than the daily injection which we are aleady aware is the COST. After government subsidy, we still need to folk out more than $1k cash for the procedure, that's provided everything goes on smoothly, else the cash payment will be alot of higher.

One cycle is will take around 6-8 weeks and I can start anytime after going thru a consent session with doctor (Apparently, you need doctor consent to go thru the procedure). We have decided to start our first cycle in March after our trip to Melbourne. Pray for us.

This is the whole procedure.....can you see that there are alot of $$$ here and there? They are just the miscellanous costs.

Respect for the elder...

What kind of respect would you have for a man who once force his wife into prostitution to support him? His first wife left him, probably because of this, he had a second wife and hisotry repeat itself. Frankly, for me, this person do not hold any 'respect' in my heart. I have no fond memories of him, all I can remember was the unreasonable demand for respect and his fat ego. He is definitely fierce and all his siblings are fearful of him, so are the rest of the family. I seriously think that respect are earned thru good cause but fear. In the past, during CNY, he expect Juniors to visit him but he never visited his elder sister. He would host dinner at his place and praises need to be sing for his cooking else he would be offended. In time of need, his elder sister lend him her lending help but the kindness was never return even when he drove branded car, wore branded watch and host expensive dinner.

Now that he is gone, his elder sister will mourn the lost of her brother but did the brother even think of the sister? As for the me, the junior, no emotion attached to what have happened.

'O' Level Result

We had a little celebration today at Zhou's resturants to celebrate the good 'O' Level result that my cousins achieved. My ah boy score 15 points for best 6 subjects, not really the best to some but was really shocking good in our eyes. Another cousin score 7 points for best 6 subjects, this is her usual grade so we kind of expect it. Today, I found that she has apply for RJC with a 3 points, amazingly crazy. 7 - 2 points for CCA - 2 points for higher chinese = 3 points. What is this man? I am already glad and happy that I got 14 points for my best 5 subjects that lend me a place in Marketing course in SP.

Oh, found out that my grand-uncle's daughter who also sat for her 'O' Level last year score 6 points for her best 6 subjects today, what has the world become..hahahaha

Only expression

This is the cute Amanda with the only expression throughout our 2 hours together. She is really adorable.

Too expensive

This amount of Four season bean cost me $7.00. Unreasonable right? Worst till, it taste horribly salty.

Happy 2009!!

Happy New Year! What's your resolutions for the brand new year? If you have not set any, start thinking and planning now. I have a few and I will try to keep closely to them.

• Complete and pass my Pilates Teacher Training class, not easy at all but I will do it.
• Training for StandChart Marathon, going for 21km in 2009. Yes, training has to start as early as possible.
• Get Tan!! Stay Tan and Look Tan
• Watch less TV Programmes and read more books, I am such a TV addict that I think I need rehab.
• Be Kind and Nice, not that I am not kind and nice enough, but I hope people around me will be positively influenced by me..*blush*
• Spend more time with my beloved, especially my Grandma.
• Bring home a Sincerity!!!

Big boobs, I know what's your NYR..:P