Babies jab

The twins had their first 5-in-1 jab today. As expected they had a good cried but didn't last too long, they behaved pretty well. Based on Sincere weight and height, his size is above average and he will be a tall boy when he grows up. Righteous is average little girl, she will not be very tall but just nice.

Doctor did an assessment on their growth progress too. Ah girl is went ahead of ah boy, doctor gave her an excellent status while ah boy need a second assessment in 1 month time. Nothing to be alert or concern, boy do developed slower than girl. However, doctor did said ah girl development is pretty advancement for her age...:)

Now that they are bigger, I do missed them when I don't get to see them daily. They are my little darling that melt my heart when they smile at me happily. We are going to GuangZhou for holiday in a few more days, am sure I will miss them but will learn to let go so that I can plan more holiday. Am grateful once again that I have a trusted nanny that I can leave them to when I need to getaway.

I survived my 1st month

it has been 1 month or rather 5 weeks back at work and we have kick start the arrangement of bringing the twins back daily except for the 2 days that Louis works late. Frankly, my mental engine took a while to operate at a optimum capacity. During the initiate weeks, I do have problem catching up on emails and the working pace. Probably due to lack of sleep, it seem to be tough to have a full concentration. Fortunately, it does gets better as the days progress.

The twins just crossed 3 months old. They are getting more active and fun to be with. Bringing them home daily does help to bond the relationship but they are also demanding little creatures. Feeding time has been most challenging with their changing mood. Sometime, they refuse to finish their milk and when I tried feeding them again, they will vomit out. It happened for both the boy and girl.

IPad 2

IPad 2 is totally cool and what more than cool is we got it as our award for our long service...which mean it is almost free!!! Have been busy setting up the iPad and downloading kid application. With iPad, the screen for iPhone just look so tiny.

Back at work

I survived the first week back at work. It wasn't too tough since I left the twins at my babysitter home for the entired week and only bringing them home on Friday evening.

Was pretty busy at work and quite a fair bits of catching up to do even though I am only away for 2 months. There are too many meetings for the first week and I barely have time to go thru all the emails and it is already Friday.

Weekend will be a challenging time for me, I will be home alone with the Twins on Saturday. We will be fine...I know!!

End of Maternity leave

2 months passes quick and I am at the end of my 2 months maternity leave, will be starting work next Monday. Rightly speaking, what passes fast are the weeks after confinement and when the babies are staying with my aunty (the babysitter). Last weekend was the first weekend that I have to bring them back, had great deal of anxiety and mixed feeling and it was an extremely busy weekend too. We attended two wedding dinners and it was an experienced.

My holiday is over and I have to face motherhood in its full prospective. We have made the decision to bring the twins back daily except for days when Louis is on afternoon or night shift which is 2 days per weeks. I am grateful for this arrangement, it means I would have 2 night of good rest per week.

I had a celebration dinner with Louis at Mortons to celebrate the birth of the twins and parenthoods. I shared with him my worries and my constant desired to cry whenever I think of the stress of taking care of the babies. Am glad that Louis is encourarging and giving me assurance that we will be fine. The dinner at Mortons was the most expensive dinner I had so far, service was superb, Onion bread taste wonderful and the steaks was great. Too bad, we were too full to have desert or rather we didn't want to spend that kind of money. So, we went to MacDonald and ordered the Ice-cream as our desert of the night.

Anyway, I will count my blessing and be grateful for the healthy and wonderful babies that I have and learn to embrace each other company. Me and Louis have also agreed to have our monhtly date to have nice and quiet dinner together but definitley not Mortons, too expensive.

Anxiety attack

I suspect that I am having some forn of anxiety attack when I can't sleep in straight two days. Freaking tired but just can't get to sleep. On day 1, I thought it could be the iced coffee I had earlier in the day but on day 2, I suspect it is anxiety because we brought baby boy back from my babusitter place. I think I am losing sleep because babies are coming back. The ironic thing is, I am worried that I won't have enough sleep when they are around, ended up my own stress causes me to lose my sleep even when they are not around, well done, isn't it?? The hot weather is not helping too and we preferred not to on the aircon when they are back caused we can't see them when the door is closed. But as I am writing this, I have closed the door, on the aircon and my boy is sleeping alone in his room. I desperately need some rest!!

General Election 2011

Like what our Prime Minster said, this election determined the next generation of Minsters and future of Singapore and we are all waiting eagerly for the result. This is the first time that we saw and heard many discussion and attention about the election from all generation, especially the post 70s. This is a good sign, at least it showed that, we do care and we are concerned about our Country. It will be sad and scary if the election means nothing to us.

I have not attended a Rally and this election came at a time when I just have two new born, might try attending one 5 years later to feel the heat and passion generated. Louis attended the rallies and he brought these back for me.....

1st Mother's Day

Our family had advance Mother's Day celebration and it also mark the first Mother's Day for me. Didn't have the drama touching emotion, rather, it was a usual family get-together. The role of a mother is new to me, I don't seem to fully understand what it meant to me at this point but I am sure it will get clearer and clearer. What I know is, mother wish is simply, we just want the babies to grow up healthy and happy.

Begining of night feed

Confinement aunty left and I have to handle all feeding now and the feeding cycle repeated at a rapid speed. Had my first taste of night feeding and it is really not fun managing the meal time if two babies. I have to make sure that their feeding do not clash and I must have sufficient time to make milk, feed, blup and put baby to sleep before the other wakes up. Oh, not forgetting changing their diaper if they poop. Really busy and after the settling the babies, it is time to express the breast milk. I basically have very little time to sleep n rest, Louis is avoiding feeding them, he is not confidence in handling them but don't think he can run away for too long cos I will be going crazy soon if I have to do this even after i started work.

Babies first month celebration

Yoohooo!! Sincere and Righteous celebrated their first month on 17 april, it marks the end of confinement for me and marks the beginning of new challenge for the 4 of us...me, louis and the two babies. We held the celebration at the function room of my aunty's condo, a cheap and good option, the rental of the room is only $20 for 6 hours. We invited closed friends, colleagues and closed relatives, the crowd were just nice and manageable. The twins were rather well behave, they slept thru the majority part of the celebration under the nosy environment. They should have super nice sleep after the celebration. We received lots of lovely gifts and red packets from everyone. Louis said we should keep all the money for their CDA accounts, so boring!!

babies first outing

We brought the twins out officially today and the experience wasn't too bad but not as easy as I thought. Just half an hour before the departure time, the tiwns decided to cry together because both of them are sleepy but refuse to sleep. I had a hard time trying to calm them down and I have not even change yet. So, I placed them on my bed, change and carry the girl while I do my make up and I have check on the boy to make sure that his pacifier is in his mouth, else he will start screaming. Multi-tasking just to make sure that we get out of the house on time and in one piece.

However, murphy's law is always a challenge, the new stroller failed to work properly and ah boy refuse to sit in the car seat. Ended up, we left the stroller at home, put the girl in the car seat, I carried the boy and off we go. The journey to office was smooth, both of them sleep thru the trip and they behave well while we were at the office too. The trip back was equally peaceful and both of them seriously knock out after we reached home. They must be really tired, especially the boy. Ah girl was tired but refuse to sleep later in the evening, she had enjoyed the attention and the carrying by all the aunties that she constantly wants to be carry now...Happiness!!

Crying babies

Tore between the old and new ways of handling the crying babies. Our mum n confinement lady always accused us of carrying or attending to the babies whenever they cried and said we are simply spoiling them. Where else the baby book will encourage doing so to give babies the security that we are there when they needed us. For me, striking a balance is important, when babies cry, attend to them and understand what happened and attend to their needs. The confinement lady had accused me couple of time that i carried them too much that they seek attention, i told her, i only carried them when they scream and i need to know what happened. And it always ended up that they are uncomfortable n not seeking attention only. The girl was crying so much that she look like she is in pain, then the C-lady said ah girl had wind in hee tummy due to crying thus causes the discomfort. So?? Whatever they said is correct and we as new parents must be wrong.. What the.,,,,

Struggling with negative thought

I feel bad for entertaining the thought of giving up breastfeeding. This is a daily battle, every middle of night is a struggle to wake up althought my eyes still spring open in an auto mode. I need to get rid of that thought, i need to overcome the negativity....now the mind and fresh are both weak, I need to overcome!!!!

Pumping Milk

Pumping milk is my routine task and to increase milk flow, pumping take place every 3 hours, even in the wee hour. Interestingly, I never need to set alarm clock to wake up for the pump, my eyes will spring open when it is time to pump. I give this credit to the nature of motherly love.By the way, breastfeeding is a very difficult and tiring task, it looks so easy but the hard work behind the feed is huge.I apologised if i ever make comments or being judgemental about breastfeeding, i truly repent.

Babies are 2 weeks old

Gladly shared that babies are 2 weeks old, i am enjoying their stage now, infants have their unique charm, need to treasure the moment cos babies grow up so fast.Looking back at the past 14 days, husband support and involvement does play an important role and part to help the weak and post labour mother to settledown and feel at ease and at peace.Without Louis around during the early days when we got home would be unthinkable. It got me thinking about paternal leave and why father should have the right to be involved and help out and they do need the transition period like the mother to realise that their baby had arrived and their roles had evolved.

At the same time, my heart really go out to mothers that their spouse were not at their side when she goes thru child birth and the adjustment thereafter. I knew of a friend's friend that huaband passed on weeks before the arrival of their baby. After going thru labour myself, i knew how tough it is for her and my heart felt the pain for her. I can't imagine how tough it is for her, just know she must be strong for her baby.I will count my blessing and be very grateful for God's grace and having Louis support throughout and going thru this period with me when i needed him most.