Reasons

Many things are happening and I know for good reasons. We might ask why ME and might not know the reasons now but someday we will. Trust that things are controlled in HIS perfect timing and all will be fine.

Now is the time to let go and prepare ourselves for what is to come. Let's do a checklist of our life and see what we have done, what we have not and what we should do? Never take things for granted and and GIVE THANKS for all that we have. Let's stay strong and focus and be there for each other.

End of road...

A friend committed sucide yesterday, thanks goodness he was saved. We do not know the reasons why ending was the road he chose, he must be going thru a very rough patch of his life that he sees no light nor hope.

Is ending his life the best option? Probably not, escaping has never been the best solution in any situation. We can only hope that our friend will brace up enough courage to continue living.

Back to normal??

How many time when something went wrong, the guy just fall back into the normal mode immediately? Suddenly or mirically, the issue that causes the quarrel just vanish in their mind? How did they do that? Each time after the quarrel, Louis will talk to me as if the issue is no longer an issue when we did not even settle it? Did he think by not addressing the problem, there is no problem?

This time, I am not ready to let it go, have I not being supportive? What does he expect from me? He can't even talk about it...what the PI PI PI PI Pi Pi Pi....

To write or not to write

I login to my profile, wanting to write something about my life but then I was stuck. Did I have nothing to write about or I have too much to hide that I can't even write on my blog? I am not sure, could be abit of both. Probably just like our life, to write or not to write is a decision and risk that we have to take. Once the preceived risk increase, we will think twice before writing down anything (black and white is never good in some situation). As the blog aged, the number of readers increased (i think) and that increase the risk of my inner self being exposed if I write about all that I want to write. Such a dilenma and ironic.

Abandon

What kind of mother would abandon their young for greener pasture? I have not idea but my aunt is currently looking after one cute but sad little gal because her vietnamese mother decided to abandon her and her elder sister.

When I first saw Qiqi, I saw the sadness in her eyes and I felt for her immediately. The little gal is so needy and insecured and needed so much love. I guess, no amount of Love will fill her needs for her mother.



Isn't she cute? Can you see the tear drop and sadness in her eyes?

Not feeling the best..

Am i going thru some crisis? I hate what I am feeling right now and the feeling is not going away. Damn.

Just a thought

How loosely do we use words like ' closest' and 'dearest'? How do we classified someone as our dearest or closest unlce, aunty, friend, dog or whatever? Isn't someone whom are called dearest should be someone we spent quality time with? Someone whom there for each other in time of need? Just a thought...

Feeling blessed

The song ' I stand in awe' kept ringing in my ears. Must go back and find the CD and listen to the song. (Not even sure if the song title is correct)

God's perfect timing

I am a back-slided Christian and that's mean that I have not been going to church, reading the bible and praying, except for the 'critical moment'.

However, I know God is good and his timing is perfect in all things. I have seen his timing and I am in awe.

With my classes, I have seen many students from very different background, educational level, personality and experience. But the amazing thing is, somehow, these students with the same experiences group themselve together in the same class (of cos they do not know each other prior to the class). To me, it is God arrangement for them to know each other to share their problems, blessing, experience for them to encourage and help each other. I am glad that I am able to be the channel for these individual to come and grow together.

Thank God for your blessing!!!!

Quarrelsome

Are you quarrelsome? What do you think are the quality to start a quarrel? I am referring to starting a quarrel with your partner. Interestingly, i have friends who have never quarrel with their partners before, I am not talking about couple who just got together and still in their super duber sweet and honeymoon period, I am talking about couple who have even gotten married. How can that be right?

Me and big boobs reckon that to start a quarrel or maintain one, you must have the bitchy quality. It's true, to be able to quarrel, you must be unreasonable, quick to accuse and have a loud voice. I am all the above, am sure Louis will agree with all his hands and legs up. Hahaha..

Eg:
During an arguement:
K: Why are you so quiet??
L: Nothing
K: What nothing? What do you mean nothing??
L: *sigh*...
K: why did you sigh? What's there to sigh?? tell me...
L: *trying to say something..*
K: Stop it, whatever you want to say are excuses...
L: =_=
Hahahaha....

It may sound funny but quarrel will also enhanced and improved the relationship, at least we spend quality time together and get to know each other better. (You can't go anywhere if two of you are fighting, right? and during that process, you will say alot of things that you will not normally said, 'true feeling'). There are good and bad of all situations, really depend on how you look at it.

Learning from each other

I have always said my students from the nail courses never fail to surprise me and from them I have learnt many many things.

I am teaching them a skill that might help them to find a job, earn some money or for personal improvement but hopefully what they take away from the lessons are more than just the skill but information and teaching that will benefit all of us for life.

To my young students who are facing challenges in life, do not give up, if you give up now you will never reach where you want to be. Nothing is for free, you must put in effort to achieve what you want. Life might be harsh on you, but that's not the reason or excuse to give yourself up. If you want others to love you, you must first love yourself.

New year with no resolution

Brand new 2008, time passes too fast, didn't even have time to look back at 2006 and 2007 have ended. Used to have and set my New Year resolution for the brand new year but this year, this word 'resolution' didn't even come to my mind until now. Still, I am not ready for anything.

Can't think of anything, my mind is full of my GZ trip next week.

Christmas - My favourite time of the year!!

Not sure about you, but for me Christmas is my most look forward time of the year. This is the time to enjoy, party, show appreciation to your loves one and listen to the wonderful Christmas songs. The festive atmosphere just make everything looks and feels better.

We love gift exchange because of the excitement and anticipation of receiving a gift from your love one. The gift is more than a gift, it is the thought and the effort that the person put in when choosing and buying the gift that count. Recently, I am disappointed by a gift that I got, not because of the value but mainly on the fact that it is too thoughtless and conventient gift to be given. Last year, the same thing happened, the gift from the same person was obviously a free gift that she got long time ago and she conveniently use it for the gift exchange. What goes around comes around, if you do not put in effort, sincere heart and love in handling friendship, don't expect the impossible from the rest.

This is a lesson but it is not going to spoil my Christmas, I still have parties to attend and friends that i love and I know they love me too.

JOY

Holiday time again. Just confirmed our trip to GZ (yes, GZ again) in Jan 08. This time, I am going with my hubby and my shopping kaki, Vanessa and her Hubby to be, Thomas. It is going to be fun and this time I will be going there for a straight 6 days, longest trip ever.

Jan is going to be cold but we are all looking forward to it. There will be lots of eating and shopping waiting for us man.

Counting down to GZ, we are 71 days away from GZ...are you excited?

FEAR

I am still feeling weak after a long night of rest. Other than the bad cought and sore throat, something else is haunting me. As you may know, my family has the history of Colon Cancer and all of us in the family will have 50% chance of getting it. Colon cancer is 100% treatable if it is discover early. Below are the Symdrome of Colon Cancer.

• a change in bowel habit
• blood in the stool
• bloating, persistent abdominal distention constipation
• a feeling of fullness even after having a bowel movement
• narrowing of the stool-so-called ribbon stools
• persistent, chronic fatigue
• abdominal discomfort
• unexplained weight loss
• very rarely, nausea and vomitingly.

What scared me was, these few days i have discover blood in my stool. The most effective way of discovering Colon Cancer is thru reglar check up and a yearly colonscopy. I missed mine last year, so I am rushing down to Poly Clinic the coming Monday for a reference letter for a appointment with SGH. No time to waste. Pray for me!!

Break-thru

A finally break thru, have been learning golf for awhile but i have been very inconsistent. I admit I have not practice hard enough and with a lousy coach who have the tentancy to look down on women, how fast can we improve right?

Anyway, with good tips from my boss and my secret weapon, i managed to drive more than 120m consistently last night. I am so excited.

Here's my weapon:

Making choices

Making choices are not easy, especially if you have to move out of your comfort zone. There will be anxiety, worry and uncertainty ahead. But if you want to change your lifestyle, you will have to step out and make the changes. Nobody can make the decision for your except for yourself.

If you want to have a bright future, start by sleeping early. If you can't sleep early, then change your current lifestyle. Thing will not change by you asking a few questions. You got to do something about it. Stop giving yourself excuses. Life is yours, take control. You are young, you are allowed to make mistake, but learnt from your mistake. How many time must be wrong and failed before you buck up? You want to be praise? Earn it. You want to be treated like an adult? Behave like one. You want a good future? Work hard.

There is no free lunch in this world, your mum can't be providing and shielding you forever, be responsible.

Ah bao, this is for you.